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「 bouncing away 11:38 PM 」

Maybe im running high on female hormones since its red alert time but just wanted to pen my thoughts down on something. ive been pretty thoughtful lately idk why.

My cousin just got married. congratulations to the happy couple. There was of course a huge wedding with the huge fam all there, and even the extended ones that i dont even know. Its been the second wedding of the string of marriages in these few months, but everytime after these big events i always get quite emotional. For the bride and groom yes, but these events seem to make me happy and also sad.

Because i start thinking about how big of a family i have and how we're all so happy together and some day, any time, i may start to lose them one by one.. and im not and will never be ready for that. Being in this one big happy family (despite the fights), we enjoy being together, we enjoy the numbers, we enjoy the jokes and laughter. At a young age i always felt like it was going to be like that for a long long time, like an eternity. When ahma passed away last year it didn't hit me straight away, but slowly i realised that i don't have this eternity anymore. The stopwatch has started to tick and time feels limited and IS limited.

I started to want to spend the weekends 'family time' with family instead of friends or at home, even on days i didn't feel like talking much i wanted to just be there with them.

So i was thinking about how emotional i get because of what these events remind me of and i realised something. I hated this feeling because i was ..scared. Scared of losing my love ones even though i know that it is inevitable. People are not getting younger and while i'm about to embark on my career and maybe new family in the future, it feels like a much shorter time before i start losing the ones that i grew up with.

I'm not ready for that, I havent spent enough time with them yet and i probably never will. I hope that when the inevitable happens, the thought of the big warm happy family that i will then once have does not sadden me but instead makes me happy and fills me with strength.

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 10:24 PM 」

Y'know. We always see what we wanna see.

Our analysis and interpretations are really important, sometimes it's what makes us. But there are also times where intention should be the one that really matters..don't you think?

People are gonna see you however they want to see you, they'll interpret your actions however they want to. Sometimes no matter the odds, when they want to see something in a certain way, they will. So maybe sometimes its better if we don't try to reason, regardless of the damage.

Then again you wonder, when you form an opinion, do you stop to think about this first?

Just some cookies to nibble on.

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 11:11 PM 」

okay so since its been a long time, and i want to keep this blog as memories. why not just do a little get to know me to see how much i've changed.. or haven't hahah

What was your:

Last beverage: Water.
Last Phone call: some company trying to recruit  
Last text message: lexus
Last song you listened to: The Feeling by Justin Bieber ft. Halsey
Last time you cried: today LOL

Have you ever:

Dated someone twice: No.
Been cheated on: No.
Kissed someone and regretted it: nop
Lost someone special: Yes.
Been Depressed: well you need to be clinically diagnosed for that right. so maybe but technically no
Been drunk and threw up: No.
List 3 fav colors: blue, red, eh some monochromatic colour

Last year, have you:

Found out someone was talking about you: mm cant remember but if they did it wasnt bad
Made a new friend: oh yeah 
Fallen out of love: No.
Found out who your true friends are: i think that one is always pending. but i have a core of really great ones that i wont doubt (:

General:

How many people on your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all i think

Firsts:

First surgery: Never had one.
First piercing: Ears.
First best friend: weiyan xD
First sport you joined: Swimming...? or golf LOL
First vacation: eh probably states or sth i was too young to know

 
Right now:

Eating: nothing
Drinking: water
I’m about to be: surfing the net?
Waiting for: when i tell myself to get to bed lol

Your Future:

Want kids: probably
Get married: if i can find someone
Career: shit this one is a problem rn. but i want to do something that involved helping people.

Which is better:Lips or Eyes: eyesHugs or kisses: hugs
Shorter or Taller: taller
Older or younger: older
Romantic or Spontaneous: spontaneous
Nice Stomach or Arms: ...arms idk
Sensitive or Loud: sensitive
Hook-up or Relationship: relationshipTrouble maker or Hesitant: hesitant.. then troublemaker at the right times hahah

Have you ever:Kissed a stranger: no

Drank hard liquor: i tried like literally 1 drop
Lost contacts/glasses: nope 
Sex on first date: no
Broke someones heart: ..maybe? o.o romantically definitely none LOL
Arrested: nope hahah
Turned someone down: in terms of what
Cried when someone died: ofc
Fallen for a friend: haha i think so. but i didnt really let myself fall bc no chance HAHA

Do you believe in:Yourself: lol after all these years, still a no
Miracles: mm only when i see it, otherwise neutral
Love at first sight: not really..like at first sight yes. i think it starts with a sort of feeling, but not love
Heaven: not sure
Santa Clause: anybody my age still does?
Kiss on first date: whatever happens, happens
Angels: not sure

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Here's another: 

Name: Mun Ning
Nickname(s): Emma, Mun, munster 
Birthday: 22 Jan 1994
Time and date at current moment: 11.04pm, 1/12/2015
Average hours of sleep: around 8?
Lucky number: 7?
Last thing I Googled: tumblr about me lol
First word that comes to mind: food
One place that makes me happy: my bed 

Favourites

Fictional character: lol percy jackson & annabeth chase. and some chars from the shows im watching now - TVD, PLL, AOS, NCIS, TW

Anime: dont really watch that

TV show: The Vampire Diaries, Teen Wolf, Pretty Little Liars, NCIS, Agents of Shield, Masterchef US, ANTM, new girl, somtimes finding carter
Beverage: idk i like many drinks haha. green tea?
Food: home cooked food. western and japanese. noodles... chicken nuggets and pizza lol. ham

Others
Last movie I saw in theatres: i think it was Jurassic World
Dream holiday: Greece? norway? new zealand? somewhere with alot of nice scenic places
Dream wedding: simple
Dream job: something that involves helping people. maybe at the hospital. like a dietitian, or physiotherapist, or working with animals. 

okay done with it im quite tired lol

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 8:27 PM 」

dear jesse,

i miss you. that was definitely too quick. i wish it was less painful for you. but whats happened, happened. it's been two days, it happened on new years of 2015, making me think that this year is going to be nothing but painful. painful of course, partially, because you're not here. i always think of you, especially when im unhappy, or feeling down, or bored sometimes haha. but i do, all the time. i ask mom for photos of you almost everyday because sometimes that'll be the only thing that'll make me laugh. even if you dont know it, even if you're so far away, you still make me laugh. or smile, or brighten up my day. make me look forward to coming home, make me want to fly home just to see you. i'll definitely do that for you haha. i'll spend all my free time with you i dont even mind. although all you do nowadays is sleep haha. i'll stay up for you too, when there's a thunderstorm. becausee you're always so scared and shivering. you'd jump on my bed or hide under my leg and drool so much that it resembles a mini swimming pool. and i'll scold you of course haha because i always accidentally step on it, or slip on it. yucky. but i'll still laugh afterwards and think that you're cute.everything you do is cute actually haha. and when im having a bad day all i have to do is come home and look at you and everything is magically okay. and you'll sit with me when im crying although im not sure if you know that i am haha, but its okay. your company always made me feel better, no matter what happens. and i hope my company did for you too.

i remember the first time i saw you at the pet store. i knew i had to have you. you were so cute haha. droopy eyes, puffy fur that stuck out in all directions.little cute ears that flopped down at the ends. sharp nose. so curious of everything that happened around. looked a little sad sometimes haha. and mom saw you too. and of course she loved you so much haha, you were so beautiful. and she was still hesitating to get a dog. but you made her haha. thank you for that because now she realises how much she loves dogs. and it just took one day for us to make the decision. which is actually alot considering she really didnt want to dirty the house. and then we took you home. i remember holding on to you really tightly because i didnt want you to be scared of the people and traffic around, afraid that you may jump down and run around. but you didnt! you were so good. and i kept petting you trying to reassure you. hopefully it did. and we got to the car. i cant really remember when but on the way to the vet in the car you had car sickness and puked haha. first time i witness a dog throwing up and i thought it was something more serious haha. but you stink mummy's car haha.

but we got home, and made a makeshift cage for you in the kitchen so that you could walk around. and i couldn't bear leaving you haha i just wanted to watch you all the time. you had to rest because you were a puppy and puppy needs loads of rest. i couldnt wait to take your for a walk either but you couldnt yet because you didnt have all your vaccinations. so you would pee on the floor even if we gave you a pee pad. haha, i had so much cleaning to do. pretty sure we wasted loads of paper towel. but whatever, i dont mind. we gave you toys in your cage too, you loved playing with the tennis ball. you'd crouch your front really low and stick your butt in the air with the wagging tail and pounce at the ball and i really could watch you all day long. its so cute. you liked squeaky toys too! make so much noise and disturb everybody but i thought it was cute. everything you do is cute.

it was near december that time and the weather was kinda stormy and i was worried about you being in the kitchen because its outdoors. but mom wouldnt let you in because you'd pee and poo everywhere and dirty the house. thought since you're a dog maybe you'd be fine but i was still worried. and for good reason because you did get sick. with pneumonia. and it was christmas eve when we brought you to the vet. met val and hoho there remember because hoho's eye had some problem. came home with a few medicines and antibiotics that i had to push down your throat. didnt feel nice, musnt have felt nice for you too. but you were sick and i cant lose a puppy that i just got. had to let you get loads of rest although all i wanted to do was play with you. you weren't eating that well either so we had to put glucose into your food. might had to have you operated too but you got better, and we didnt have to. and i was so happy.

i remember lettting you play in the garden before you could go for walks too. you'd prance around happily, i'll run after you making sure you didnt get hurt. all my friends was so happy to see you too and they call loved to visit. you scratched and bit me all the time too haha, made my hands full of scratches and cuts. but i didnt mind at all. not at all. i loved any sort of communication you tried to make, even if it was biting me.

yknow what i cant write anymore so it ends here. the memories will be in my brain, and one day when i feel like revising them, i'll come back here and post my feelings.. but for now jess, rest in peace, keep everybody up there happy like you do when you were here (: i love you so much,  always and forever thankful for you..

I'll never forget you.

Signing off, mun.

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Hello,

So recently i havent been posting, aside from the occasional comes backs saying that i haven't been posting ever haha. ive been reading old posts to lexy and ive been thinking. this is actually a good form of memory. albeit the site may get taken down in the future, idk. but its a good way to pen my experiences down, i can always go back and look, see how far i've come, or see how much i must revert.

I'm at this point in my life now: finished my bachelors in nutrition..applying for postgraduate courses and also jobs. Tho the process is kinda slow. and not gonna lie, im kinda taking my time. Only because i'm kinda dreading work, but also its the only point of time in life where you can have a little rest. Well mom didn't give me that rest, so i took it myself, with her nagging lol. but now its been quite awhile. i should be doing smth, which i am. its just i should be doing more. Becoming a bum isn't my goal in life hahah.

I sorta want to work in a hospital yknow. An environment where i can help people's health? that why im aiming for dietitian. but problem is im  not a very communicative person. if i dont have to talk, or don't want to, esp in work/school, i don't.  and dietitian needs loads of communication. its just all confusing rn and ive applied for both dietitian and food tech. we'll see what happens. maybe i wont even get to study any. then its straight to work, sigh. I feel like even tho i completed my degree 1 year earilier than all my peers, i still feel like im behind somehow... at least on the motivation part. Only because im not exactly sure where i wanna go. amanda study dentistry, nat studying med, joyln econs, justina accounting, tricia crystal and shannon law, and tbh i keep forgetting ym's and ht's haha woops.

I'll get there eventually. but for now i feel like no matter how much  i ponder i still wont come to a decision. unless i just do it. ohwell. itsjsut all so complicated for me now and i feel like im losing control of myself a little bit sometimes.

Also this year lots happened.. apart from the fact that i graduated, jesse passed away on new years... which really wasnt a good start. she was doing fine and we went to visit her in the hospital in her oxygen cage. well that night we got a call and think the infection spread to her heart and then there was tachycardia and then they tried but couldnt save her. well we buried her in our garden backyard. i miss her and always will. but shes in a good place! the world is actually really horrible... and no the biggest i feel isnt the ocean anymore hahah.
ahma passed away few months ago too, which really shook the family. esp with all the fam fights at the hospital outside the ICU for like 2 weeks. it was septic infection from UTI. which really doesnt sound bad right, but it is for immunocompromised people like elderlies.. well anything can happen. More so for the older generations ofc. we younger ones, we know it'll have to come sooner or later. it was just abit too sudden and all. But i'll never forget all of us kneeling in the room with ahma on the bed (back from hospital) and praying and all as she passes away. sad doesn't not cut to describe it, im still tearing up now as i write this. But yknow what, she's in a happier place, probably with grandpa....hopefully he doesnt already have 3 other wives up thereto take care of hahah. amazing thing that happened was that our whole family continously striked lottery afterwards, almost covering the cost of the hospital fee, or was it funeral. im not sure, but pretty sure ahma was protecting us (:

Anyway, on to happy stuff. I've made a tumblr and twitter fan account for 5h hahah. only to get updates but then i started to make edits and stuff and now my tumblr has 20000+ followers. which is real cool tbh. twitter not so much haha i just go on there when im bored by theres always drama there lol. I've talked to a couple ppl online. Orlane, arasha (shes from sg too) etc etc, and also lexy, whom ive made such good friends with. well it didnt stop there for her side hahaha. and yes... "here we go again" i know. it seems its a common theme in my life xD

Also gert is gonna grad next year. yep im faster than him haha. also we got a new dog, called tammi. I often refer to her as boss because literally she wakes me up everyday with these small little barks that sounds like 'hap!' and i'll give in to those puppy eyes and get my ass out of bed hahah. but shes cute, her personality is cute. i love her ofc, just like every pet i had. we promised the breeder that we would breed her one time, so if everything goes well, there might be pups next year! mom initially didnt like dogs right, well now she does hahah. tammi is even allowed onto the couch and such haha.

anyway heres a pic of tammi! <3 p="">
ah i forgot, also started playing volleyball in uni and got into the team just after 1.5 years of playing haha. yay. most of my teammates have been playing for like 6 years + haha.

anyway, i'll try to come and update. but yknow no promises haha im lazy.

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 8:06 PM 」

ok so theres nobody reading this i am sure 110%. from now on its only gonna be for memory (:

i have reached another point in life where i have an obsession with another idol and this time its fifth harmony. no seriously okay all the celebrities i get obsessed with are always girls because i realise theyre more suitable to be a role model rather than guys. like i wanna be like the girls but be with the guys. u get me

i realised everytime i get an obsession i always have no one else to share it with! seriously. its so sad haha and im too shy to go around like "hey listen to them they sound phenomenal!" so im just on tumblr fangirling away with other people who share the similar situation.

okay cut the crap im gonna explain why i like them for my future self to come back and feel embarrassed about. jolyn introduced me to them. first time i watched x factor, was rooting for carly but fell in love with fifth harmony instead.

lets talk about their voices k theyre basically five solo artists put together so they all can sing.

lets break it down according to the first picture. the girl on the furthest left is called normani,shes 17,shes african american french indian i completely lost track.but she has a very cool and chill personality and her lower register is smooth as silk its very strong. sometimes she legit hits bass notes and it sounds so good. so she usually sings the lowest harmony. on top of that she can hit whistle notes. plus she has a model body and looks good in everything she wears and dances sings acts and almost became miss texas. shes the best dancer of the group

2nd girl from the right is called ally, shes 20. shes the shortest but yet the oldest but shes really sweet and nice like one of those people who'd ask you if you need a plaster when a needle pokes you. her voice is very mariah carey like and as opposed to normani her higher register is very strong. she can do whistle notes too and when she goes higher her notes are very clear and packs a punch. she wears everything neon. shes really religous but knows how to turn it on when shes dancing so everytime she does something really sexy everybody jokes that she needs jesus.

the one in the middle is called camila, shes 16 shes the fan favourite and used to be my fav but then i switched. anyway shes really goofy and has a very nice heart shes really nice to the fans they all are. and shes awkward and cant really dance. everything she does screams cute.but basically everybody likes her shes like the harry of her group. her voice has a unique tone that ive never heard before which gives the group an edge. and she can do many vocal runs. but her voice is the best when it comes in small doses. i think shes the mezzo sop of the group. shes usually leading the chorus because her voice is most suitable for pop. but i think shes getting abit too much attention though.oh and shes really smart

2nd from the left is called dinah, shes also 16. tallest of the group and have a lovable and nice personality. her vocal runs are really really good as well. her falsetto is also strong and has a good higher register as well. she sounds a little like beyonce but you'd never guess shes only 16. but when she sings its crazy.shes a major goofball as well.

the one on the furthest right is lauren. shes 17. shes really smart, had a scholarship to one of the top schools in miami. shes the megan fox of the group because shes the only one who has green eyes that changes colour every second and petrifies everybody no seriously, its beautiful its gonna pierce right into your soul, just look:

she along with normani are the sexiest in the group imo based on their dancing. normani is the better dancer but lauren does it with more sass and fierceness. shes also really sassy and is the one to keep the group in check, which always comes off as bossy.the problem is that often her intentions comes off as something else and often gets misunderstood. i understand for some reason and maybe thats why shes my favourite. shes also really caring and protects everybody. without her they never really get anything done because theyre always to busy interacting with each other.so if you hurt one of the other girls or the fans she'll basically sass your ass out. and her voice is basically antique its really full and husky, shes always in tune and has great control. but its so unique you can tell when she sings.for me her voice is the one that gives me the most goosebumps.the thing is she is also goofy so that makes it even better. for her everything she does screams sexy and this isnt common from all the celebrities ive seen. so basically i love her and am currently obsessed with her. i need to make another post about lauren because i have alot more things to say
Lauren's audition: http://youtu.be/qHTBo4TNuwQ

this whole group is basically a group of 5 idiots and goofballs. they spent the last twitcam doing a skit a fan suggested and then pretended to be camels searching for water and not mention that they have an EP coming out until the last 5 seconds "oh and dont forget to buy the EP thing" lol. theyre so genuine unlike other artists and humble. the point it the industry needs a girl group and now they got one. plus all of them can sing its not like destiny's child or pussycat dolls where the rest are backup singers. they take turns to sing which keeps the listener interested. plus small doses of each of their voices jst makes me want to listen more.

their album isnt out yet but theyve been touring performing their songs and honestly theyre really good. each song has a different vibe to it, almost a different genre. and it brings back other styles like old school rock kinda thing. ive tried to show it to other people but yknow idk if its just me or like they dont have the same taste or im just obsessed but i really think their songs are good. its not those where'd you say "its good cause its catchy" its good cause its really good.

also on x factor they didnt win but they were killing it with the vocals every week. everybody is saying like female one direction but i dont think they'll be as famous just because theyre girls. but the thing is one direction is overrated imo and i think fifth harmony can sing more than them. im not saying their not good its just that fifth harmony's vocals are much better so deal with it.

other than that when they get interviewed they basically have a conversation among themselves because theyre five excited puppies and nobody can interview them better than themselves because its entertaining to see them interact.  not to mention none of them are white. ally is mexican american, normani is african american french indian wtv, camila is cuban mexican american, dinah is polynesian and lauren is cuban american. even better foreign talent. theyre always dancing around and making funny faces. and they will also fight security just to take pictures with fans. on top of that if you throw a bra on stage they will play with it. and theyre also very family orientated.

and also theyre not as famous now and its the best time to meet them but god bless singapore nobody ever comes here so im stuck wtf. Im gonna post some videos for future references to remind myself why my taste at this age wasnt THAT bad lol


anyway listen to their new songs here:
Dont Let Me Dance Alone

Leave My Heart Out Of This

Tellin Me
One Wish, Better Together
 
Who Are You


go watch it you wont regret

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 3:25 AM 」

the problem is i dont love myself.

Signing off, mun.

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