tEnNis!: August 2011

play around with the bounceicles. drag them round. jump on them. and more!

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

heyo!

just came back from paintball with my family! ohmy (: its always fun haha! and everytime i try to get more daring to try to get the objective!! got shot on my head,back,fingers x2,arm and leg hahaha! the head one was the most painful omgz! its totally a freaking ball now! HAH =.= and my fingers are bleeding abit but HAD A BLAST :D

so fun playing with aunties and stuff! hahaha! plus army cousins? woah a challenge (: managed to get the objective for one of the game! shot some people and stuff! my aunty got shot at her...on top lololol! great time with family (:

later going buffet ): wtp i damn fat already! gt and i starting our diet on thursday lolol! see how long we can last!!! (: and i really need to start studying? all ive been doing is just more homework! =.= ah sian!!

anyway, kinda miss performing! although we always screw up somehow or another, the experience is always fun (: hahaha! aish okay gonna go try to do some geog! tartar!

Signing off, mun.

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Monday, August 29, 2011

ohman, most embarrassing gig of my life.
need plastic surgery before going back to school

but lousy PA though.

Signing off, mun.

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Friday, August 26, 2011

haha great day today (:

school ended at 1! then went home, band prac! then went out with glendd, glenda and shannon! hahaha! went to xinwang to eat! lotsa stuff happened in between like shannon and glenda posting that im in love on my fb status =.= LOL

but anyway at dinner table today with 3 of them it felt like we were family! like they were cousins and we all trust each other and everything! nice feeling (: the feeling that you can open up to just any of them and that they'll understand how you feel! and care about too! haa nice (: plus the fact that theres so many and too many things to tell each other/discuss!

God please dont take this away too! im too scared to feel happy about having something anymore

Signing off, mun.

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Monday, August 22, 2011

Advice - Christina Grimmie

Don't look down.
Because it's easier falling from force.
Just letting it take natures course,
and picking it up when it's over.

Don't be afraid.
'Cause the chances are there for the take.
But treasure the choices you make,
and know when you must take it slower.

You may think you've had it rough,
and try to give it up.
But when you think your stuck,
Just go another way!

Don't let go of good times,
and let the bad ones know you feel fine.
And wear your heart out on your sleeve,
'Cause love is all, love is all you need.

Don't be rushed.
'Cause hurrying causes mistakes,
and make sure to give more than take,
and sharing yourself bring you closer

You may think you've had it rough,
and try to give it up.
But when you think, your stuck.
Just go another way!

Chorus

Ooh Ooh
Ooh ooh.

Ohh,
Ohh oh.

Take a chance now,
'Cause it's easy.
Take a chance now for you and me.

Take a chance now,
You can reach it!
Take a chance for me!

Chorus

Oh! It's all you need!
Love is all,
Love is all,
Love is all you need...
_________________

oh be sure to check out Karmin and Meekakitty on youtube! haha theyre awesome! Karmin is a acoustic band and meekakitty is a blogger!

Signing off, mun.

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yo people. doing math vectors now cause theres a class test on wed! and yep if youre wondering im totally hecking econs..i think!.. ): too depressed!

anyway event of the day: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTINA! (: (L) lotsa love yeah teammie! hope you had a good one although you'll never ever read this! aha (: sorry was stuck doing zuowen couldnt celebrate with you!

okay well back to being sian! i think the stupid medicine is giving me the drowsy effect ): omgz im so sleepy now well its not early either but i havent done a single question! i have been going through from vector A-D so i guess that took some time! and by the way jesse couldnt get spayed cause her lungs are still not well :| 20% scared that is ah sigh. nvm its okay she doesnt have to right (:

hmm, less than a week to concert ): aish! everything is so stressful now i want to start studying but just cant really! and i dont like it when friends remind me to study somehow! well depends on the way you put it across to me! if youre like scolding or lecturing me trying to make me scared i'll get pissed with you! =.= just me, im super angsty. nowadays at least.

hmmm, was thinking now all of us kinda come to a point in our lives where we all start maturing? in different ways for diff people i guess, depends on whats happening in your life! for me, ive start to open up to family more? spend more time with them, realize not communicating to family is not the "in" kinda thing now! most of us should have gotten over the stage? i have no idea :|

ah but that aside, i still cant tell you how much i hate school! hate being in that place! oh gosh, we should all just get homeschooled! i'd rather sit at home and not talk to anyone! its just HORRIBLE!!!! so horrible ohmygosh. and now promos are nearing and my subjects are killing me! im technically only interested in math and geog! =.= the rest im like fcare lol. I HATE JC LIFE!!!!!!!

CAUTION : HOMEWORK OVERLOADING
-blink blink-

aiyah wtp i just wanna stay home ): you cant call this as childish want i guess! although its sorta running away from reality! but, when all else fails, when youre not feeling comfortable, when everything is putting so much pressure on you, all you want to do is go back to your hermit hole and rest there for awhile, let everything pass by while you rest, then get back out and complete it!

Signing off, mun.

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Saturday, August 20, 2011

hey!

flu got worst ): today is a horrible day for the first half! still sick but woke this morning at 7+, went to school at around 8 and teacher not there =.= he said i can go earlier next week cause i need to leave early for drums! but he came at 8.30! then i did and it was so frustrating! esp cause its integration? Then did until like 12.30????? mum fetched me and we attempted to chiong to ps but too late. mum urged me to go in for the last 10 min so.. =.= ohwells

then i was in a horrible mood i dont feel like spending time to include details on how horrible math was so anyway i was super sian and hungry and flu-ey and needed to eat cause i basically havent ate since 7 and it was like 1+ lol 6h+ =.= then finally ate, went home! feeling sick and all. then everything kinda got better than my bro (aka book/gert) offered to bring me to drum testing :D 8D hahaha well yall should know that my bro and i hardly talk! haha but we're not on bad terms or something, its just we hardly talk to each other!

so like.... gorgor bring meimei to go see the things she wants to buy=sooo heartwarming kinda thing! haha although he also wants the drums for his band =.= but really, you'd be like "awwwww thats so sweet", plus we hardly even talk! then mum was so pleased too she offered to fetch us and accompany us there, totally forgetting that she doesnt want another drumset in the house! LOL. didnt tell her that though

and she fetched us all the way to kallang :O haha the swee lee there! the electronic drum that was affordable (not the 18k one that was totally boomz) wasnt much more than mine so wasnt much. looked around the real drumset and stuff! music shops takes my mind to some magical drifting mode lol =.= maybe cause music very easily changes your mood i guess?

then went to ahma house, ate, taught chinese to nicole although i really really suck as a teacher cause i forgot half the terms =.= (shes p5 btw) then came home and bro is jamming! and im feeling miserable here with my flu! cant do work cause its just so hard to concentrate when your eyes are hot and teary and your nose is stuck!...and its too early to sleep! so...posting...lol

suddenly got alot of ppl tag o.o ohno does that mean that there are more than 1 person(me) who reads my blog? oh shat.

okay bye

Signing off, mun.

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Friday, August 19, 2011

20) Name 5 presents you wish to receive on your birthday.

HARRY POTTER STUFF :D
drums? :D
dog stuff for jesse
taylor swift merchandise??
a nice house...? ._.

lol these stuff are mostly impossible to get... thats why theyre here :D hahaha

Signing off, mun.

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yo everybody,

im home at 2.45 and its friday! which means...I PONNED SCHOOL. okay im joking. no, im not feeling well! ): had a headache and head felt heavy with flu and a slight cough so i decided i couldnt take the usual 7h lessons straight on friday! so here i am at home with jesse!

woke up today and went to attend geog and math lecture haha because i am a guai kid okay! (:

anyway, things still have been horrible recently! okay, maybe yesterday wasnt so bad because i came home from school early and slept till 5+! the less time i spend in school (with the execption of friday), the better the day seems! sometimes i wonder if other people are starting to judge me in school cause my face is always either :( or :| or :[ , either! ah wtv, idc.

did i mention i fell down the stairs? yeap! on wednesday glenda and i were jamming at my house and i still had my socks on! then i was carrying jesse down the stairs with socks on so naturally i slipped and then i landed on the lower left part of my back and jesse landed on me! and the best part is she happily walked away while im like "@$@*_())$ OWWW!" lol! so now i cant even lie down on that part and that side of my head hurts so its horrible ): and technically it hurts when i walk lol! this sucks =.=

other than that ive been practicing hard for our next performance! ohno ):
did i mention how painful my knee is? ): ohmy i cant even cycle uphill or go up and down steps or even stand up from the chair without it hurting ):

and school feels more miserable than anywhere ): every other minute you get reminded of something you dont want to! or....get pissed of by a particular classmate... =.=

home is the best.

Signing off, mun.

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Monday, August 15, 2011

19) Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday

oh, had a blast! team tried to surprise me and they failed of course! but we still had so much fun (:
next? idk, i really dont. every year its different. some years its quiet, some years its partyish! so if nobody is gonna spring any traps on me then im just gonna spend the day lazing around the house with jesse (: which is sorta a reward too!

Signing off, mun.

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18) Post one confession/secret

hmm er idk, nah not gonna post a secret theyre secrets for a reason

maybe i'd confess i feel like lying on the bed and sleeping forever?
thats not really a confess but idc

Signing off, mun.

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tbh,

all i feel like doing now is torturing myself :\ not THAT way anymore but, like, not sleeping tonight or something.haiz...........

Signing off, mun.

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Sunday, August 14, 2011

hey people.

life still bad. surprise surprise~! only good thing that happened this week is with family i guess! okay lets start with friday.

Friday
school was okay! one of the better day in my week! after school went to gym with teammies, suppose to run 3km then i felt like running more so i ran 5km but it was kinda just a jog so, no sweat! then went to the weights room and we ran into the stanford math teacher doing workout (: heee! tricia was..hmm! then teammies went for dinner. and tbh, i hope non of you are reading this but if you actually are, i did feel abit uncomfortable! it feels the same i guess! the people did not change but the feeling did. which is very, very sad. and i hate to see politics. hate it. to the core. i cant deal with it at this stage. not now at least. anyway
went to play basketball with glenda haiyun grace 2 basketballers and shannon! hhaha it was so freaking fun and tiring! esp after a 5km run! but it was fun although i was so noob just running all over the place wasting energy! lol! sorry for my noobness! and got a freaking huge blister from that! like bigger than a 50cent! and its still here now that ive popped it! cant even walk properly! after that went to have a drink/dinner with shannon (: haha good ol times! feeling may be abit mismatched but still feels good (:

sat
morning math tuition! really tiring but its good i guess! then went to buy the cajon at bras basah! haha im so noob that it sounds like construction works when i played it! failed studying math after that with the box to distract me. its seriously....not cheap lol. then went to ahma house for dinner (: another mini bbq! ah, we were talking about baking and cooking and whipping something together next week for dinner or something (: feels so freaking good talking to them about these stuffs because it IS home! its just another compartment of my life where i wont feel so much pain! and its nice (: family is good! next time we wont have the chance to do all these so we better cherish them now!

sunday
today was horrible. woke up so late, ate like a pig. just kept eating and eating for like 2-3h and i was so freaking stuffed! so fat now omg. tried to do math but cant concentrate. so i read TIOBE. for the first time in fact. tmr gonna die for math and lit lecture test. and ugh! maybe gonna pon chinese or something. but today was the worst day, so unproductive and it just had to be the day before math and lit lecture test. its so freaking sian!

so im just gonna die tmr. oh, forgot to mention i brought jesse to the vet on sat to inspect cause my mum wants to spay her! :O ouch! haiz. i want to get my life back on track for ONCE for ONCE! control!!! "I NEED ORDER!!!" i have to have self control! i really need that but where to find that? something to motivate me? WHAT? pleasing my parents perhaps? my family? ok that seems to be the only reason why im studying anyway. keep watching meekakitty on youtube! shes (y) entertaining i guess. maybe i should start making vlogs? but probably not post them here because its very very embarrassing!

okay its 12.11am on monday and i technically havent done more than 5 questions for math today. see how screwed i am? HELLO MUN COME ON MOTIVATE YOURSELF!!!! only you can help yourself! you just need to start doing it!!!!!! this makes me feel like im supposed to be a robot for like the next 2 months. oh why not? since we're all supposed to be robots for the next year.

did i mention i think i have to sing for the next gig? oh my why am i posting this? just felt like sharing it with my blog. and i hope nobody sees this! YOU DID NOT SEE THIS. because nobody should ever hear me sing unless you want to become deaf! yeah, why am i singing? NO WAAAYYYYY its too embarrassing! NOOOOOOO!

COME ON MUN COME ON!!!!! if you want to do well YOU HAVE TO START DOING SOMETHING! i guess im just afraid that i'll not be able to sustain it. or perhaps im just too lazy to do anything now more than ever because I WONT GET WHAT I WORK FOR ANYWAY. why work? to show people that i did something although i failed. maybe? perhaps? probably. while everyone out there in school seems to be having a breeze getting through their studies. and im just not.working.for.it. whuuuutttttttt..... life's like this.

some people are smarter and some are not. some people's lives are generally better and some are not. some people just have good luck and some dont. come on mun pull through this year!

....and after all this prep talk to myself, im still not hyped up at all....

can everyone see im trying??
i try but i never succeed.
there's that, thats my life story. (for now)
can i at least get something that i worked for, for once? at least...? i just need that motivation!!
bleagh.

Signing off, mun.

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Wednesday, August 10, 2011

hmm, days just keeps going by!

recently i think ive become more and more introverted! like i dont even feel like being around friends? unless im comfortable and that person is comfortable with silence. Other than that i just dont want to be with anybody! except my family! funny how when everything fails we go running back to our family, guess thats where the comfort comes?

hmm :\ im still so devastated ): ive said this a million times but nobody would understand :\ except some! and by some i mean like 1 or 2! smiling now becomes compulsory not voluntarily. yall must be thinking: wts just let it go man, life still goes on, there are still other chances, dont let this affect you too much, dont think about it, you can still contribute. hey guys?!?!? here's the catch: i dont even feel like contributing now!!! i know i will want to but i dont feel like it! get it? plus, you have no idea how hard it is to put your all in something for 3 years straight without fail, and NOT get it. any idea? NO, of course not, how many of you have lives like this? and you must be thinking: there are people that are worst off than you. but now im comparing to people my age, my year, my environment! and comparing to that, my life sucks. the same way you compare your results to people who are better, not worst off.

life feels pretty much like in a trance now! like, time just goes by and im just doing whatever im doing. worried for promos like shit but i cant start! being alone feels normal now and its actually kinda weird to be around people. anyway, i kinda like it that way! maybe with friends around more things can happen? and those things can be happy or sad, and its mostly sad now so i'd rather stay at home, nothing much can happen, i can do what i like, spend time with jesse.

gah and i dont even feel like talking to people now ): maybe its fine online, but when i have to act more cheerful its just horrible! and right now im even wishing that nobody would read this! i just wanna be with my family ): spend time yknow ): agh ): sometimes i would try to tell people how i feel but then i'd stop halfway because theyre pretending to actually understand when they dont really understand fully! then they'll give me those kind of advice mentioned above and i'll walk away feeling 10 times worst! UGH DONT YOU GET IT?!??!!!? time will take away the pain but the scar will be there forever! seeing my source of strength and happiness in school turn into something that'll make me feel horrible. it bittersweet but more bitter than sweet now.this sucks! what did i do in life to get this man? my life just sucks as compared to everybody else!

and i dont even wanna think what comps will be like next year.
i just wanna take my mind off life by doing other stuff!

why so emo munz?
ya think?

Signing off, mun.

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Saturday, August 6, 2011

17) Bullet your day

-woke up at 8
-went to math remedial
-rushed off to drums (late for 0.5h)
-snacked
-went ice skating with class
-ate yoguru with class
-went to dhoby with class
-took bus back to bukit timah
-walked to ahma house for dinner
-came home and played com

Signing off, mun.

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16) Name 2 significant people of your life and explain why

ahs, its 2 groups!

-family
always there to back me, somewhere i can feel comfortable and in safe hand, protected and with security
-friends
people who understands me the most, i enjoy being with, cant do without. the people who i have the best time with (:

Signing off, mun.

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Ah,why is my life so horrible now? Seriously nothing has been going well! Even my few hours of happiness had to be destroyed by something! Really having a bad time.since July.curse 2011!

Btw today's performance was so screwed.probably screwed our image of us.need to redeem ourselves! Wtp this sucks )':

Life why can't you be better towards me )':

Signing off, mun.

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Wednesday, August 3, 2011

15) Write about something you worry about a lot

my results! tennis performance?

Signing off, mun.

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14) Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.

fav book: percy jackson/harry potter series :D
fav movie: harry potter (: star wars, lord of the rings, the hangover, and many more! white chicks (: hahaha
fav band: boyslikegirls, AAR ahaha around there! faber drive
fav food: oh alot man! but its all rubbish (: i love sausages, chicken nuggets, all the ang mo food, donuts, ba zhang lol,noodles, chips, gummies and chocolate (reeses :D) i love to drink sweet drinks, ALOT of things lol! fruits (:

Signing off, mun.

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13) What are your plans for the future? Far and near

haha plans? to practice like shit for gig! and start studying for promos i guess!

far..... i wanna be a nutritionist! go to US/UK/Australia wtv to study (:

Signing off, mun.

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Tuesday, August 2, 2011

12) Write about the worst day of your life

haha many worst days too, i cant recall! but some of them are quite recent though!

Signing off, mun.

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11) Write about the best day of your life.

there isnt a best best day! many awesome days, no particular best day. cause i have yet to fufil a goal that i really want!

Signing off, mun.

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10) What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?

oh mymy, there are many too! i dont wish to talk about them! or my self confidence will be like negative and i'll go commit suicide or something =.=

Signing off, mun.

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9) What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?

idk! there are so many nice things that people said to me and i really really appreciate that! i may not express it because im shy hahah! but really, thank you to all that did! really love you guys! (: those moments will be those where i have a spark of self confidence, which is really rare (: thanks!

Signing off, mun.

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8) How do you feel today?

Like shit! been feeling shit recently! become moody eye mun! totally need an escape! everything is so stressful! just wanna lie on my bed and sleep/watch a movie and forget everything for a moment!

Signing off, mun.

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Monday, August 1, 2011

6) When was the last time you cried?

few nights ago.

Signing off, mun.

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5) Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good

sec 1-3, need not explain to those who know me well.
JC1, from july till now. well starting off with blocks it sucked cause i came home 5 days before exams. and then now this thing happen...second time it happen. it really, theres really no way you can understand how bad this feels because you have no idea how much effort and pain i went through trying to do this right. so it seems totally unreasonable and childish that im still so affected by it but really, its really ALOT of effort, i have never committed myself to or put in so much effort and dedication for something before.
and all i get in return is just two times the disappointment. aish. yep i cant move on yet cause i just chionged for 3 years and didnt even get to my destination now im stuck somewhere else with no motivation. everything seems really down and irritates me alot, i have no mood to do homework nor study for tests nor go exercise. I just feel like lying down and sleeping forever.

Signing off, mun.

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4) Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.

from the end of last year to the mid of this year i guess! and other than that its probably like p1-5 or something. sec school and JC is horrible.

Signing off, mun.

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3) If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?

haha spend time with my loved ones, play some tennis, perform, and if theres time i can fly overseas to meet my idols hehe (: go sky diving or something

Signing off, mun.

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2) Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years

Well haha i'm not sure which one was my first? So lets just say my first good friend!
P1: Same class as Joline (: haha yep one of the twins! used to stay back in class during recess to sweep the classroom and get A for our cleanliness (: haha miss those times! guess whos antisocial from young haha (: being seen in public alone is just scary to me!

p3&4: made my first best friend (: hehe Weiyan (: hang out with other people like Nerp and Si Li too! quite cool yeah (: did lotsa things together, had many first times! including a first sleepover and such! First time i stayed so late in a friends house, went swimming with, ate spaghetti and fish and chips, went bowling together, ate gummies and played PS2 in the attic, piggybacked up the staircase after 1.6km run, flew 5 metres after tripping on. haha lots of other stuff its really alot! and up to now we're still in contact and i really cherish that(: havent met up for so long so hope can meet up soon!

p5&6: pretty much hung out with a group of people. mainly amelia, jingen, tingting, jolyn, joey and more (: wasnt particularly close to anyone! did go joey's house a few times though (:

sec1&2&3: i do not wish to talk about that. but there was my tablemates grace and abby (: had such a great time together! and then theres ashley loh whom i did the stupidest things with! and amanda my teammie

Sec4: got to know tingwei i guess? other than that my new classmates haha formed a new awesome band (: had gay times with 410 (:

JC1: nobody in particular? im closest to my team i guess, really love you guys so much! and then theres other people like the gg's and grace and all (:

Signing off, mun.

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1) Post 15 facts about yourself.

1. I like HarryPotter, StarWars,LOTR
2. I love playing most sports
3. I play drums!
4. I try to eat healthy and save money
5. I like to sing background vocals when listening to songs
6. When i go crazy about something its really crazy
7. I like TaylorSwift, EmmaWatson, Djokovic, LoganLerman..and the list goes on
8. I like to bake
9. I want to go overseas and study to become a nutritionist
10. I love my family,friends and dog
11. I hate school
12. I'm addicted to sweet drinks and sweets and chocolate
13. I love my team so much (L)
14. I love eating sausages
15. I play in a band

okay done that was too easy and fast (y)

Signing off, mun.

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okay, i got this of shannon's blog who got this off her sister's blog who got it off tumblr, and i think glenda is posting this too and since i feel like answering questions about myself now because ive been losing my mind and my fighting spirit and everything maybe it'll help? or just take my mind off everything that is happening now!

1) Post 15 facts about yourself.
2) Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.
3) If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?
4) Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.
5) Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.
6) When was the last time you cried?
7) Upload a recent picture of you.
8) How do you feel today?
9) What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?
10) What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?
11) Write about the best day of your life.
12) Write about the worst day of your life.
13) What are your plans for the future? Far and near.
14) Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.
15) Write about something you worry about a lot.
16) Name 2 significant people of your life and explain why.
17) Bullet your day.
18) Post one confession/secret.
19) Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.
20) Name 5 presents you wish to receive on your birthday.
21) How has your life changed over the past year?
22) What made you smile the most today?
23) Describe what you spend most of your time on.
24) How was your week been?
25) Write a letter to someone you miss.
26) Write about something you once loved, but now despise.
27) Where is somewhere you would want to visit?
28) If you had three wishes, what would they be?
29) Write about any particular habits/mannerisms that you have.
30) Where do you think you’ll be in 5 years?

Signing off, mun.

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