hi so its close to 2am!

just finished washing up and finishing homework! reached home late from work today! like 12.30am literally! been eating dinner too late ): i don't like it but kinda hungry! 

 today i think i did okay during work! managed to remember the first 17 starters and their sauces or so! may seem easy but you need to know what is what too! like some food i have never seen before =.= and putting the wrong sauce just...!  hate to disappoint people so i kept trying to remember before the crowd came in! did okay! but brought the food to the wrong section once heh! couldn't stop umchio-ing! 

and may seem stupid but the first time i put something down on the table myself while holding the tray! i swear i could have died! for some reason my hands arnt that stable! i can hold the tray well but smaller stuffs I'm not so good! LOL and i couldn't reach! anyway so i think i did okay! worked quite fast today! trying to push more everyday! its like the 3rd day of work and i know a few stuffs! i had 3 different people to work with so everyday i get taught the same thing 3 different ways =.= want to tell them but ah just let it be

almost met the owner of the restaurant! the person in charge was gonna make me! but he didnt have time though! today tried the "O" button on the bar tap! HAHAHA ITS SO FREAKING AMUSING I SWEAR! need one of those. and it was orange juice!! quite nice :D yay hahaha free drinks! i think I'm the youngest one there? I'm like 18 and most of them are 20+,30+! 

mesh LEARN FASTER MUN PUSH YOURSELF! nobody likes being bad at stuff.

supposd to work today again (aka friday) but he let me have a day rest and I'm to work on saturday! which is the busiest of the busiest! don't understand why =.= if they're so short then they should hire all 4 of us at the same time or something! okay need to find a good pair of flip flops or make my shoes soft

hiya!

haven't posted for a really long time! 

so as of now i have officially moved to my new room! its okay, its alright, bit smaller but still kinda cosy. can't open my window at night because bugs will fly in! better than cigarette smokes though. can't decorate my board with pictures because the blutack won't stick! ): so theres 4 people living here! 1 black, 1 from iran (who cooks well), one twin from hongkong! funny they split the twins! all pretty nice! haven't met the black girl though ._.  kitchen is smaller, fridge is literally half the size i think this is a handicap accommodation! but theres still space, not bad! enough for 4 girls. which means the kitchen is so much cleaner too! yay!!

so slept at 4 that day! basically started moving at around 3+, nearing the end at about 6. i went and came back like 13 times with a heavy box each time! had to take at least 3 stops in between because the boxes were too heavy. and with each trip my arm aches more! >< on top of that it was raining occasionally! so ada and nicole needs to move too! ada lives in hazel farm which is a 15 min bus ride! so i went to help her bring her stuff if not she has to keep taking bus! then put her stuff in her room and it was round 8+? then went back to my room and nicole came to help us bring my super heavy(its actually only 18kg) fridge which i can't take down the cupboard!then we were all too tired and hungry so we cooked my instant noodles for dinner =.= 

then unpacked for awhile while waiting for nicole, ada and i went to tesco to get stuffs too! because prior to moving we finished most of our food for convenience! then we went back to put her groceries and i went to help nicole move her whole house in one go (we put everything in a tesco trolley which people just take =.=) up the freaking hill which walking up is already a problem! so pretty much felt like a bull over there! and ada fell asleep lol stupid! finally finished around 12! helped them unpack then walked home! realized i did all the shifting myself and i helped both of them =.= and i have the most and heaviest things! aint boasting but happy i could help! (:

unpacked because there was literally no space to sleep! ada and i unpacked till 4, then went to sleep.

22nd June:

woke up at 9, basically no time to sleep =.= then went to class, after class went back home and napped. then went tesco with nicole again because i realized i forgot to buy some  stuff. no more.

23rd June:

went to nicole and ada's place to have fondue! with fouynn felicia ghalia and najat as well! girls day! had a blast! played card games, cooked etc! was fun. went home around 11!

24th June:

did nothing the whole day, then went to nicole and ada's place to cook mee sua because i need to finish mine fast! didnt prepare it properly so all sticked =.= it was the same as eating rice! then watched football england vs italy!

25th June:

slept late, woke up late, late for class. =.= oops. then nicole felicia ada and fouynn came to my house and we baked cornflakes cookies(without raisins because they couldn't find). was not bad! but the first batch was kinda tasteless, maybe because they didnt trust that i made this before because i was putting a lot of sugar =.= TSKTSK GUYS TSKTSK.hope i didnt come off as too stubborn or something! oh we tried to cook fried bee hoon but failed because everything sticked together ._. still ate though! then saw it was a nice day and since i live right by the lake, literally next to it! brought my guitar and we sat and lied down on the grass under the soft sunlight and cool breeze and chilled.....i meant they chill i play the guitar =.= but was still nice though!

26th June:

had english class, then math class was canceled so had free time! tried to bake tortilla chips, was half success! not bad! quite healthy too! then went for first day of job.stuck tissue into my flats because it was too big. so naturally it squished my second toe for the whole night. and brushed against my feel till it was on fire by the time i reached the restaurant. not to mention i had to run there because the bus wasn't here. couldn't really walk by the time i reached the work place! was thinking "shit happens" haha perfect definition! met the manager, talked about the stuffs etc! showed around the restaurant. then bam start work.

So the manager brings me into the kitchen, greetings everybody. almost everybody working here is thai. and so when they saw me, NATURALLY, they all start speaking to me in thai =.= i was just o.o and smiling lol! gosh =.= same thing happened everywhere he brought me! not that the restaurant is that big but it has class! anyway,first day was easy, just showing me around, teaching me how to do the stuff! what i had to do was just remember the table numbers and then bring the food to the table. then someone will take the food off. easy! just that the table numbers are kinda confusing, have to memorize them and not bring them to the wrong table or people there will go "O.o?!" and when customers have that face, its never a good thing =.= i just don't want to trip or drop any of the food thats all ._.

got to see how stuff works in the kitchen, see the chefs cook! its quite cool! :D but my feet was killing me.but i was happy to serve people because i like making them happy! then after like an hour or so my mentor brought me to the utensils station and then taught me what to do. so its just taking a tin, filling it with boiling hot water, putting the washed utensils inside and then taking them out and clean them with a cloth, then put them in the drawer. after that take one of each utensil (big and small spoon and fork) arrange them properly and put them on the tray on the table neatly. then wiped the clean plates with a wet towel and then dry them. then told the red napkins and wrap them around the plates(in a certain way) then put them aside. so its just that! just that...theres like 200 plates or something. and like 500 utensils or wtv. its repetitive, which i happen to be good at =.=

in between we're allowed breaks. we can walk to the bar counter and take a cup and fill it using the "shower head" thing in bars? those stuffs which there are a few buttons and different buttons means different drinks! so cool :D pressed lemonade and i got the sparkling one instead =.= the one you mix with alcohols =.= was okay though! everybody kept asking me if i was fine too! oh forgot to mention had a big problem with the uniform they had to alter mine haha. =.=

when we finally ended the guy who is also sort of a manager could tell that my foot hurts =.= so oh crap i must have been walking like some weirdo shit the whole time =.= anyway then we took our lunch boxes (free meal :D) then sat on the bus back home. reached home about 11+? ate dinner  or rather supper then slept =.= so unhealthy but hey we don't eat dinner when people dine =.=

27th June:

so today was terrible. supposed to bake and cook with nicole ada fouynn and ghalia, but failed. woke up at 9+ (slept at 2am trying to practice guitar and digest my food. because they said they wanted to chill by the lake again and i need to know more songs) to go to tesco to buy the ingredients. because i know nobody will wake up so early! the night before asked them to meet at 11.45 because i knew they're surely gonna be late. little did i know that their late is like 45min late? or 1h. was so tired and from the night before and then slept 7h, changed clothes like 5 times because couldn't find something comfortable, then couldn't find my university card and bus pass. so paid for a return ticket to tesco. bought the ingredients, hoped ghalia could come back with me but she wasn't ready. then forgot which bus stop (they're side by side) goes to town and which goes somewhere else. so i walked home. not to mention the 2 huge raw blisters on my heel from the night before. reached about 11.50? nobody was ready. nicole just woke up, ghalia is getting ready, fy is in hazel farm dk doing what and ada haven't even woke up.

OH SO MAD! so anyway i sorta knew it could happen. so went back, prepared the ingredients first! then realized its like 12.45pm. CRAP i need to go to town at 4 to try to get new shoes to go to work. NOT ENOUGH TIME TO BAKE AND COOK AND GO TO THE LAKE. i know there was time to do one of them but i don't wanna rush things! plus was feeling so frustrated and moody and tired! like they didnt do anything last night and get more rest! =.= not thinking for each other there ya!so i just threw the ingredients away and told them not to come! but the reason i got mad is because so much thought and energy put into organizing things just for the benefit of everybody (nobody plans things either) and nobody wants to respect that. and they knew i had work =.= its like i had work the day before, not you guys, i woke up earlier just to prepare the stuff because i know you guys will be late and then nobody had the courtesy to turn up at least 15 minutes late =.= so where did all my energy go to? =.= WASTE =.= oh god. then, it sounds really childish, but it made me so frustrated that i started tearing! =.= then crying because all i wanted is jesse to be here with me. so first time since april i broke down =.= haish.

all these may sound unreasonable. hence i told them its not their fault ._. and I'm only saying it here because i need to pen down my thoughts and i don't want them to feel guilty (some apologized). also if next time i read this i'll remember that because i wanted to be the better person i let myself get pushed around! and its wrong but i might (and have been) do that again. its better for other people to be happy if you can't be right?

so you see moompe you teach us how to be the better person and i know now I'm the one pushing you around trying to get you to understand me. but i know how you're feeling its just that there isn't any other way i know how to do this. but don't worry I'm not oblivious to your feelings. theres so many things i want to be able to do but don't like saying it out.

anyway bought the shoes, went to work. i really want a torres jersey to sleep in now =.= he is one shitting cute man with awhile load of skill. and modesty! glad spain won! anyway had more pressure from the staff to memorize the freaking menu which has 63 things on there, and different sauce for different starters.like seriously? okay i don't even know what food is what, even if i memorize all the sauces and starters i won't know which is which! anyway a different part of my foot hurt from the shoes today. oh god =.= worked quite fast today though! on the way home had gastric! =.= went home ate my dinner and now I'm here, at 2 am. tmr they need people again.friday as well. so....told them saturday off lol.