Wednesday, March 27, 2013
hiya whee im posting again.
its easter holidays now. much has happened over the past few months. somehow i cant seem to be bothered to try to remember/recall everything. usually you'd go through what you've done that day, or that week. but now im just letting time pass and letting memories pass by without doing anything about it. getting to lazy oh
anyway lets start with easter. i havent been doing much. its the end of the second day and all ive done is eat, watch friends, go to the gym and go to work. very productive. supposed to catch up on all the work because i missed a ton of lectures. just cant seem to find the motivation. so recently i've been hooked on vampire diaries as you can see. so every friday i get to watch TVD (the vampire diaries) and glee. something to look forward to! haha. although i'd prefer to watch it on tv. but yknow not like i'll ever get the chance even if im home -.-
and theres the part where im starting to work outside the "station" in work. in other words i have to take care of customers, take their orders etc. its a really tough job. harder than it seems. but i guess imma get used to it sooner or later. i mean, now making mistakes everyday its just gonna help me learn right. its honestly the best way to learn for this situation. but i enjoy it --when i dont get it wrong of course haha. today i went to ask if everything was okay in the table and when walking away i can hear them saying something like "she's really very young". HAHA i just smiled to myself. essentially im the youngest person in the place where i work. so theres plus and minuses to that. today i also unpacked a customer's cake for celebration. sounds simple and small but everything new is like a challenge.you complete it and feel good (: so for now the only thing i need to work on is clearing the plates. because i cant really balance them on my hand well enough yet. and remembering the menu of course. i kinda got it down already, but its just i cant remember so fast and i keep doubting myself. and today i served a friend. it was so awkward but well..a good experience hahaha. but i really hope to get better. at a very young age i thought serving was one of the things i'd enjoy because it makes people happy. and it really is, if you do it well~
hmm what else is there. oh have been craving pizza alot lately. been going to the gym almost everyday to run. the run felt pretty good today (: i almost always go to the gym beacuse i feel full -.- so the run always feels terrible because im so full and i cant breathe properly. but today was good i wasnt full and i ran alot so yayyyy. feels so good!
so anyway i have a confession. ive been trying to spend more time with flatmates. and in particular my neighbour. i kinda know nothing will happen but.. -.- oh sigh. forever alone. i can hear him now eating his dinner and skyping/talking on the phone. im such a stalker but hey its not my fault the walls are so thin. and i see my friends all like having "stuff" with guys and yknow all those but I'm like.. -.- and i really wont admit it but i really feel like i wont find anybody. me liking someone is really hard enough but someone liking me is much harder....and i can hear my neighbour laughing now and he kinda laughs like gert. o.o
anyway i shouldnt be thinking about things that are impossible. i mean. idk if im supposed to initiate stuff like this or whatever but i cant because i dont know so....lets just start believing that im honestly gonna be a nun. good in a way that i can keep all the money i earn and give them to my parents or nephew or niece or something lol
ok so anyway i havent been talking to people much, just so lazy to type. i dont want to repeat all my days stuff at all. im just typing this because i feel there are memories that need to be written down before i forget because time is passing so quickly. im not complaining, since theres only about 3 months left till i get to go home! its really passing quicker than ever i dont even have to worry about missing home and stuff now. because the difference is i know that i miss home, and there are times where i stop to think about it. but yknow its like "i miss them, but get over it" soon i'll get to go home. no point thinking. focus on whats here and it'll make things so much easier. im not even trying as hard to recall how jesse smells like, or what i'd be doing at home. it all seems so far now.
okay anyway im gonna go back to watching friends. need to kick this eating late at night habit as well. okay bye
Signing
off, mun.
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Wednesday, March 20, 2013
hi everybody
by now i am quite positive that nobody has visited this place in like 10 years.
but anyway im just gonna give a rough update because i feel like it
past few days have been super hectic, mainly because i had 2 lab reports and a presentation due today. and it was non-stop rushing around and completing stuff. so stressful. but its finally over and hopefully everything is okay. my fault that i didnt get on them earlier but well ITS OVER. no exams before easter so just looking forward to holidays, gonna try to do something productive like catch up on my work.
speaking of that i have been really bad and missing alot of lessons lately. some because i really cant wake up, and some beacuse i dont really wanna wake up. so ive missed quite a lot of lessons recently. i think I'm just getting tired of school and theres nothing to motivate me (like going home). tennis spain trip is in april, not sure if im looking forward to that yet.
got put outside of the station on tuesdays now, interesting and challenging experience dealing with customers. but i really do want to do well in it, so im working hard on that. tennis have been ok lately, havent been playing much. just going to the gym almost everyday trying to keep fit and stuff. trying to eat healthily as well. but cant be bothered yknow sometimes. ate the same thing a few days in a row. (rice,carrots,broccoli,egg) hahhah boring.
talking to housemates more often. kinda like hanging out with them now. luckily we starting bonding or it would have been hell boring. went out with them as well, alot of experiences that i been through and i havent had the time to record them down, or even tell anyone back home. i havent been communicating much back home either. simply because i just dont take the time off to, or im really too busy, or cant be bothered. and i dont even think about it. sometimes theres so many things you can think about, that you should find answers to but suddenly it feels as if i dont have much time to do that. im always doing something: sports, school, work, homework, hanging out, gym, events, going out at night. yknow...
now i'll probably have more time.hopefully. its 4am now and i just dont feel like sleeping though im tired as hell. forgot to mention my recent obsession with vampire diaries. the cast is hot so, whats to lose heh. tried to watch it and it turned out really good! dont let twilight put you off because this one has way more storyline than twilight. i mean, look at ian somerhalder, look at ian smolderholder.
and then theres nina dobrev,
and they are together
like heh??!!?!!?!? not fair? both so pretty
im officially obsessed with this show and now i have to wait every thursday to watch this and glee.
okay 4+ gonna sleep
Signing
off, mun.
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