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「 bouncing away 4:45 AM 」

Jet Lag - Simple Plan (ft. Natasha)

What time is it where you are?
I miss you more than anything
Back at home you feel so far
Waitin' for the phone to ring
It's gettin’ lonely livin’ upside down
I don't even wanna be in this town
Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin' me crazy

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's driving me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged

What time is it where you are?
Five more days and I'll be home
I keep your picture in my car
I hate the thought of you alone
I've been keepin' busy all the time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin’ me crazy

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's drivin' me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Is so jet lagged

I miss you so bad [x5]
I wanna share your horizon
I miss you so bad
And see the same sunrising
I miss you so bad
Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me.

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's drivin' me mad
I miss when you say good morning
But it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
And it's drivin' me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Heart, heart, heart is so jetlagged
Is so jetlagged
Is so jetlagged

Signing off, mun.

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haiz miss friends in singapore so bad ): nobody will understand me like they do! i'll never have as much fun with anybody else. and i miss home so much, miss jesse so much! can't wait to go back and run into the arms of the people who i love!!! haiz ): i feel like here i so useless!

went out the town with classmates a few times these few days! but ah wells, so sian, wanna go home yknow, see the things that i used to see, do the things that i used to do, be with people who would only make me happy, comfortable! do things for people who i love, celebrate and have fun with people that I'm so used to! i keep reminding myself its only 14h apart! well it is, but this 14h doesnt mean i can see them anytime i want!

i wanna be able to go back and talk to jesse when I'm upset, spend time with her and tell her stuff that i can't tell anybody, or maybe just talk to her in my head cause i hate saying stuff out. idk, just be in my room, sing as loud as i want to, play music really loudest and dance around, play the drums when i want to, eat food that i love eating, feel the warm breeze and look at the trees swinging around my garden, sit on the porch with jesse and enjoy the breeze with her, play tennis and be able to feel my hands,serve properly without a jacket thats restricting me.

55 days to go.

mum keeps telling me i shouldn't hold on to my friends so much ! i know eventually we will drift and drift further and further but no matter how far i aint gonna let go of these friends even if they do!

i miss y'all so much )': i should just fly back every weekend! i don't like the new life here

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 7:02 AM 」

hey!!

omg im so freaing tired! i was on the courts for like 4h straight? 1.5h training, 1h running around picking balls and demonstrating in the beginner class o.o then 1.5h playing again! omg....my knees are like gone omg!! ): ITS BACK!! it got better and now its back! omg this sucks.

anyways i wanna thank my friends for the video they made me....it was...special..not good enough...mmm..it was just..the best! THE BEST!!!!! its like literally the best birthday present i had!!! its so touching omg! and special thanks to glendat who made the video! THANKS SO MUCH BUDDY!!! i know i don't say thanks enough...but thats cause i can't express how i feel into words! its just...the feeling is there and i wanna show it but i can't put it in words i'd show it in action! ah y'all know that!

i actually made a video to give them, to say thanks! but now I'm kinda too embarrassed to show it to them so i guess we're scraping the idea =.= hhaha. oh btw yesterday on fb i saw this oreo add of a little girl sky ping with her dad and eating oreos! :D with milk together! so i asked glendas grace and shannon to eat oreos with mik with me on sat night :D hehehe looking forward to that!

the bread here doenst last..i guess cause its fresh? so like it only lasts for 2 days max! =.= so i can't finish and I'm gonna feed it to the ducks tmr cause it expired =.=okay I'm so tired!!

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 6:36 AM 」

today was like the worst day ever

had dreams of home again and woke a few times, then woke at 9. then dressed up to go library to find classmates which i couldn't find. walked around for 15 min mindlessly and then went to collect jesse's clothes. Then went to collect NUS card, then went back. nothing to do! stone and stone then went to the lake, thought of studying there, so i went back to get work. then went there, then too cold, so went back, take clothes, bought sandwich, then went there and ended up feeding the ducks instead, which was like the best part. but all the time i felt so lonely.like nobody to be with me and share the nice and horrible stuff with, only on whatsapp, which like isn't enough. i like haven't said more than 30 words today.

then too cold, so went back, and stoned. then webcammed friends and family which was like the best part! esp with ggg,j, and the tv. after that went to vb. went there waited till 8, oh nobody. asked reception if there was class she said yep at 9pm. so loiter around for 1h, so freaking bored. then 9pm..nobody there!.....9.15...nobody there! this is like the freaking second time i went there and waiting for something to start which doesn't.

then ok nvm went to take bus. then for some reason i just got of one stop after the park, which was not my stop. then idk what to do, and it was some ulu place and i was all alone and freaking cold =.= so pissed. and scared! considered walking but remembered it wasn't singapore. then next bus, 40min _|_ okay so wait 40min finally got on the bus. went back, and got lost in the uni. so dark and scary so started running! finally ran back home, and I'm not even finished. nobody to whatsapp nobody to text I'm so fking lonely and scared and i just wanna go home where i feel so comfortable.and where there is people to text, people to talk to. I'm just talking to myself, talking to the ducks all day and talking to the computer to talk to my friends and even my dog who doesn't even know I'm talking to her.

and to continue, i came back and on my light and it wouldn't on. and i use it as my night light....omg I'm so pissed I'm so depressed I'm like going crazy here! I'm so tired but i don't wanna sleep because i know i'll just keep dreaming of my home and ITS NOT A NICE DREAM ANYMORE.its just replay of the sad things that happened, gonna happen, all the memories i miss...everything that people at home can do and i can't! and i haven't seen anyone that went overseas to study as unhappy as me before. whats all this man...im so sick and tired of it!!! i just wanna go home man i wanna have a nice good night sleep, i wanna sleep on a bed with my pillows that is not hard, walk on a floor that isn't dirty, wash up in a toilet that does not have dust no matter how much i clean it, cook in a kitchen that is clean and smells nice,listen to music in a speaker plays music properly, talk to everybody and meet up as and when i like.

i really really really want to go back right now, like even on the weekends or something, idk, idc. comfort words...comfort texts arnt even enough although they do help. and the worst thing is I'm going through something that nobody at home have experienced. so nobody freaking understands enough how freaking hard is this man! i don't even wanna tell them because it'll be all that i'll talk about. i don't wanna tell my parents because i just don't like talking about this kinda stuff to them.i can't even tell jesse because she's not here. this is so pathetic. i don't know how I'm gonna stand all this know.it doesn't seem possible right now. 63 days. its only been 18 days....

i swear I'm going crazy here.

and mummy stop reading my blog because i need some privacy.

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 3:15 AM 」

comfort please....?

january is like the month of crying now
when i said goodbye, i cried
when i boarded the plane, i cried
when i saw jesse on webcam, i cried
when glendas sent me photos of jesse, i cried
when my dad went home, i cried
when i dreamt of home i cried
when my mum went home, i cried
in the middle of the night, i cried

..now I'm here on my own, and i cry
still waiting for the time where its all okay
or maybe just the time when i can go back.
or maybe just the time where i can finally stay in singapore with my family and friends
how am i gonna get through 4 years of studying overseas, right now it just doenst seem possible, hoping that it will be soon

but every time i cry i try to remind myself that this is sorta what i choose, its my decisions that put me in the place that i am now, and i can only work forward from here. although nobody, or hardly anybody can understand how i feel right now, thats fine. people here rant feeling as homesick as i am somehow. also must constantly remind myself that I'm only a phone call, a Skype call oovoo call, whatsapp message, and 14h plane flight away from home. that actually seems like a long while for me. everyday i just feel like sitting in my room and crying my eyes out, but remember mun that a lot of money was spent on this and the only thing you can do right now is to work hard and repay them. and i can't wait for that day to come because i'd finally be able to repay all the love and effort that people around me have given to me, esp my family. i need to stop crying, just counting till the day where i won't be alone.

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 5:56 AM 」

hey!

ok omg its late!! its 10pm here and i always sleep at 9+...ahwells!

today went for the advanced tennis session! well it was....i didn't expect everyone there to be older....like much much older! but anyways had a good hit, haven't played for awhile! had first chem class today too! teacher was really quite boring! but ohman...we were learning like the periodic table etc! -.- 2h chem then 2h eng straight, really kills you! its some weird timetable! oh anyway the coach asked me to go down at 5pm to hit with the performance squad which is all guys and the oldest is 15.. =.=

and then i said like "okay sure :D i'll have to ask my mum about it anyway" then i thought..ASK MY MUM?!?!?! oh my god, what kind of university student am i??!?!?!? wts!!!! I'm so embrrassed i hope they don't look down =.= but i really needed time to think haha I'm so paiseh to do anything :\

also, thinking of joining volleyball! maybe once per week or something idk but...i like volleyball! oh! playing tennis in the cold is like..wow! first my hands were so cold i totally couldn't feel them and couldn't control the racket! but after awhile it's okay! mmmm today morning i woke up and saw that the lake was frozen and walked out in my pajamas cause i couldn't wait to see it! and it is...beautiful.....

okay gotta run! last night with mum )': hate to admit it but I'm kinda unsure about living alone :\ ah okay bye!

oh click to enlarge (:

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 5:17 AM 」

went to the tennis team practice today and waited for 1h in the cold and almost died only coming home to realize that they sent an email to me saying that its canceled due to frosty conditions =.=

ah should have known! the tennis court was covered in frost anyway =.=

still...brrr hope i don't fall sick! staying in the guest room my mum rented anyway.ahwells :\

school today was sian! 3h eng 3h math! ohwells....

ok gtg sleep!, tennis course tmr lol, not team training.lazy to post pictures. oh btw the math....er the professor times the unknown over in an inequality equation =.= and he doesn't understand ohman.

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 3:36 AM 」

hey!!

kinda distracted now because 17 again is on tv! hah wanted to like post and do some work but i guess ): damn! anyway, i spend the day shopping! schools starts on monday! and i ate TGIF again :D hehe its really really nice okay! please go try the jack daniel's ribs! OH MY GOSHHHH! ITS SERIOUSLY...YUM! okay mum and i probably go back and eat it before she leaves!

and tbh, I'm kinda scared for the time when she leaves :\ I feel alone ): i think I'm gonna feel alone :\ like scared of all the stuff and all! ah ): sian, this inner fear which i don't wanna think or admit but have to! ahwells! anyway, bought new stuff! (: love the clothes here! ok I'm really distracted! okay imma post pictures and watch 17 again aha and torrent it! OMG OH YEAH DVDs are really really cheap here!

jesse..and my two buddys (: and dodo of course

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 5:26 AM 」

watch the parent trap? (: recently watched it at the hotel TV haha it was really good! forgot how good it was! really touching and heartwarming (: shall go get the movie!

anyway, friday already, my hands are really tired from typing! anyway, hope everything is okay for everybody (: okay imma go rest hahah (: cya i'll post longer/with more stuff next time

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 5:20 PM 」

woke up this morning with my two gs sending pictures of jesse to me as they visited her! i miss jesse so much ): and started tearing ohmy ): i miss talking to people in singapore ): haiz I'm not even halfway through ):

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 5:24 AM 」

dodo went back today ):

i miss him )':

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 6:06 AM 」

hello!

kinda late so i'll make it a fast one! today first day of school! lots awkwardness! i don't know anybody and i want my friends back ): feel so lonely esp sitting in the LT alone! ): anyway nothing much today tmr have some small english test so sian! just got a prepaid SIM card! dad bought a mini fridge which isn't so mini so i kinda got pissed cause i kinda decided i wanna be normal and put my stuff in the common fridge! worst he bought a printer which i don't think i need so waste so much money I'm so angry!!!!!

anyway tired gtg! cya! oh, ate at TGIF!

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 2:16 AM 」

hiya!

things not so good lately? not like bad bad but, worst than usual! ohwells :\

realized its so hard to communicate with people at home ): aish, maybe its gonna get better when i get my SIM card but right now, its really hard -.- and theres the part where you start wondering whether people actually care to talk to you/want to because i want to talk to everybody but not vice versa all the time! UGH SO HARD!

on the way back to the hotel on the train was listening to songs and they were all reminding me of things at home! was forcing myself not to think of that or i'll just start getting emo memo again! ): was missing jesse a lot too )": i really miss her! every time i do that i'll have to try so hard not to think that I'm stuck here till march :\ agh

ahwells, school starts tmr for everyone! so sian :| i am in no mood to meet new people! so stressed already ): oh today tried to go kings cross to see the HP thing but couldn't find it -.- so.... sian! then went to chinatown for lunch again! and now back at 5+ so I'm gonna go gym to jog awhile or something! haven't exercised for so long because i was considering becoming tofu just to try how it feels =.=

ohman! anyway bought nerd specs and sunglasses from a souvenir shop today! moompe thought she looked good in them! HAHA! tried yogurt yesterday with my mum's boss and is was really good! and saw some marshmallow thing too but didn't try! oh and the portion for the food here..omg..the pao's are humongous! and so is the bread! omg =.= stocked up on more noodles lol! my hair is gonna drop out! feel like jamming with VGM! kook gtg cya~

p.s the cherry coke remind me of US (:

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 4:56 AM 」

hi guys!

well today...mmm soso? went to get groceries and toiletries, then went to visit relatives and took the wrong train so we took longer than usual to get back! =.= haha just ate thai dinner again and now I'm full so i don't wanna sleep but I am so damn tired! still jet lagging pretty badly!

Tmr gonna go king's cross station! then from there go visit my mum's boss for lunch :D OMG I'm so excited!!! harry potter filmed there! and for all you people here, i will at least think of running into the wall there! i'll post pictures tmr so hopefully i really do ggo there! Realised theres a harry potter tour at the warner bro's studios! OMG but they only have it in april, maybe i'll go then!

gonna move in tmr too :\ ah so scary ): i half don't really wanna move in ): oh no haiz! nobody can share how i feel right now i realized I'm pretty much alone! but to those at home, if you're not on my mind, you're somewhere at the back of it because I'm thinking of you guys constantly! (L)

today tried to be superwoman and wore one layer plus outer coat-.- didn't know we were gonna reach home so late so i was practically dying lol! heard from relatives that its gonna get colder :\ eee! hopefully theres some snow so at least i can post it here and share it with you guys! i wanna share everything with you guys :D hopefully people here will do the same! ohwells gotta get some sleep, night~

oh and i wanna say too, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SMY :D :D :D love you!!!!! and miss you a lot too! sorry can't be there for your bday! and sorry couldn't Skype you either! but hopefully you had a good bday :D a special day for you!! (:

okay cya guys!

when i saw this, i thought of what somebody said! that no matter how far we are, we'll always be looking at the same sky!! (L)~
huge strawberries at the market!!

& mcdonalds for breakfast again! but nice :D hardly eat macs at home!

Signing off, mun.

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「 bouncing away 4:06 AM 」

hi guys!

today went to london! morning went to wimbledon! OMG SO EXCITING! the scores were still on the board! djo vs. nadal! SO COOL RIGHT! then i bought some stuff for teammies :D hehehe! then went to chinatown in london and tried duck rice :D haha cool right! i accidentally broke a chai xin bottle in the shop and couldn't find the lady so my mum just said leave it :\ i feel so bad but ohwells nothing much i can do =.= LOL! tmr gonna go grocery shopping and visit relatives! hopefully it'll be an okay day!

weather isn't so cold today! in fact kinda hot! the trains are kinda clean :O haha mm at chinatown i saw these hello kitty locks and thought of buying one for amanda but didn't have enough coins! then it suddenly hit me that hmm i really can't stop thinking of you guys here ): and esp my team and smiggles! i really really miss you guys i wanna be with you guys ): and just letting you guys know although nobody reads this blog, that i am&will be thinking of you guys no matter what! love~

Signing off, mun.

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