tEnNis!: May 2010

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Friday, May 28, 2010

flying off early tmr morning ): i dont even feel like going toba pls=.= should have switched places with belle!

anyways, woke up quite late today, lazed around, cycled out to buy stuffz that i needed, then did like 1h+ of math or something wow. ate dinner, lazed around. family came over for dinner btw. sianz

i dont wanna go toba omg ): hope its not 5 days of torture ): shucks.

Signing off, mun.

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Thursday, May 27, 2010

ouch back pain ):

like my backbone ): my back kinda feels fragile and the back of my shoulders there kinda feels sore-ish ): why ah? cause i stretch my back too much yesterday? or because im growing? okay fat hope i can only hope to grow taller but i hope i did. ): it hurts either way

today is a bad day, a bad bad day ): another day where you feel so helpless and just sit there and do nothing, like give up on everything because everything is so hard. honestly, those people who hasnt been through this hard part i really hate you.

end of school was..idk. sabbs were okay.after sabs was not. mum came to collect report book. thought it was gonna be okay until she ended up telling the teacher that i dont study and all i do is play computer. idk what i could do then i just lightly denied that and then she started telling me i do blahblah. like okay, i dont want her to end up raising my voice or something so i just kept quiet. But i DID study, idk whether its the right method of studying or whatever but then i DID study and i did study quite hard. so now im so sad because i actually did study and im not getting at least a pass?

like dont blame me if im stupid ): im not even as good in tennis now ): no strengths at all? congratz man i can go die now. i keep holding on to tennis and let it bug me everyday because i refuse to let go! now everybody is telling me to let go what i spend like all my effort and time working on? haiyah. look, just give me a time machine and honestly if i restart from sec 1 everything will be good, not perfect but very good. like really, if you left me alone and not decide to destroy my life then i would have done so much better.

anyway just blame everything on my weak character k.everythings my fault isnt that what everyone wants to hear? didnt everything happen because i was stupid? yknow right now im so fed up im not sure if i even want friendship.

Signing off, mun.

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Wednesday, May 26, 2010

someone here quite happy cause my both my parents told me twice today that if im done with JC i can go overseas to study :D hehe shit must pass=.=

anyway sabbs are getting better and better (: as in, its math and chinese, its better than wasting time one other mindless sabbaticals right? (: esp when your studies suck. sleeping early really helped although i didnt acheive what i slept early for =.= ohwells, its like 2 more days in singapore till toba trip i.i i dont really wanna go, and im not looking forward to it, im looking forward to finishing it =.= diao!!

i havent started packing either i probably should =.= sigh i know it sucks i know!!! okay, should i play drums or sleep? :D haha omg so relaxed? i think i did a zuowen thinking that its compulsory shit =.= ohwells lah.

idk how to be optimistic! haiyoh! maybe more rest will help! i shall keep resting and resting? o.o hmmz, okay im getting tired how much more of a loser can i get =.= btw classmates like talking to my mum on ebuddy =.= LOL (Y)

val called the laoshi aunty.. o.o LOL that was funny! (: ahyah maybe should just go sleep, and try to acheive my goal again =.=

dodo said if i pass, i'lll go SV trip, then maybe stay in US so that they join me? :D andd then look around at the universities in US, then head down to UK and look at the unis too :D hehe :D cant tell how how excited am i :D i just hope i pass omg =.= hehehe :D jiayou mun :D

Signing off, mun.

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Tuesday, May 25, 2010

realised that, everything is going wrong because of my character! and i really dont know how to change it! shannon says maybe i need something extremely drastic to happen! O.O lol! ohwells, idk! moompe says that everything boils down to whats inside you! like we said, there is no point trying if you dont even want it! But if you want it and dont try then theres no point wanting it! If there are certain things you just cant let go of then maybe you need to think of it. If you cant change anything and you cant live without it then live with whatever's left of it or something. soon it'll just fade.

i think the problem about my character is that i dont even know who i am. =.= i dont know what i want =.= its almost as though what i want never existed and what others want becomes everything. And i think thats why im so indecisive? because i dont know what i want! i don't mind not having a choice! most of the time =.=

shannon and i agreed that right now all of us are still finding our identities. people change, or change drastically because the world is changing, because the people around them are changing. We might not know what we want to change to or are changing into. Like how many if you act the same to everybody? We don't right? How about, who do you feel most yourself with? Then think, is that the real you? Or is that just the happy you, the sad you or whatsoever?

i should probably create a dam. like to stop all the emotions from flooding in! be more task oriented! not easy to create a dam i know it takes alot of mental strength and my mental strength is equivalent to a kid's. =.= or maybe less =.=

Like lls said, different people have different talents/things that we're good at! So i think thats why im so stupid? =.= she gave me an example that if i studied very hard and still get lower than someone who doesnt study as hard, then thats quite normal, because if the person trained so hard in tennis, she might not have acheived what i acheived! true! Then i suddenly thought of those who can have the best of both. We should like not think of them =.= seriously qian bian pls =.=

ahyah whatever it is , hope i can be strong soon. cant let tennis fall but studies still stagnant right? :\ shitz gotta work hard, now i just need energy and motivation =.=

Signing off, mun.

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Monday, May 24, 2010

hey guys!

today was kinda gloomy =.= i think partially beacuse i didnt really have people to sms =.= like during class, esp when im bored to death =.= feels weird =.= LOL anyways, try not to think of that! today sabs was oaky. chinese was quite fun =.= hah ohwells, but did like shit for zong he tian kong. Then break went to eat with dorcas. Then math was zzzz! went to do CIP after that! finally finished! so the only homework for tonight is to write the reflections! =.=

yay i love jesse and aaron :D idc whatever they do in their lives LOL! :D

Signing off, mun.

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Saturday, May 22, 2010

heyo heyo people! :D

back from paintball! :D FREAKING FUN I TELL YOU OMG WHO WANTS TO GO PAINTBALL I GO I GO! :D kk i start from morning

woe up at 8.45m paiseh idk why my alarm never go off. huey teng called and i woke =.= haha anyways, changed, was a little bad mood cause i was tired and my mum was asking me when i bathe so fast =.= lol! then went to sch, saw yellow person...omg...bad mood, didnt wanna play, the more i stayed the more i bad mood, i see some people so happy..i bad mood more! ): seriously...the new coaches, i dont like them although they might be good honestly. didnt feel like staying at the court, for once? :\ anyways its damn sad i was damn angry i didnt i say hi i just walked off. stoned in canteen with shannon. then we walked back, then milo van there! haha decided to do a good deed! (: so shannon and i put many cups of milo on our rackets, and we walked around giving people :D heheh :D feels damn good seriously! :D wanted to do more! then shannon ps me!

hahaha ahyah, lazy to think exact, but anyway, teached tw how to pick a ball up with the racket and foot without bending :D yep the cool one :D hahah tw you can go show off now :D val was shouting around omg =.= went to dance room to meet steffi and stuff, walked around with steffi and val and val seriously molests people omg. =.= hahaha then went up to play soccer and the ball flew down from the 4th floor =.= hhahaha wow! =.= hmm, no energy already=.= didnt really eat breakfast, was tired, slept at 1 and played tennis with sheryl for awhile and she like blasts the ball everywhere cause she cant control so i have to run after it =.= haha. by the time finish, woah damn tired felt like fainting=.= tw passed me panty to safekeep cause she going off! aww!

rushed home in a cab, ate like 2 cookies, then cousins picked me up to go paintball. was supposed to wear long sleeve and long pants but no long sleeve so just track pants =.= haha PAINTBALL WAS SUPER FUN! girls had chest protection btw. LOL 1st round, i was really really careful! like dont dare. hahaha so i sorta hide and stuff, think i hit my aunty :D hehe :D didnt get hit! quite tiring! was scared until shaking pls! =.= 2nd round, got hit on my leg! and right now the baluku is like bulging=.= hahaha in the end run out of bullets =.= walao! LOL

3rd round was the best! got objective! suppose to go onto some exposed area, take the purple block, return to base then take the flag, then hook it and then raise the flag! LOL i didnt dare okay, i was hiding in some dangerous place occasionally shooting at the person who was hiding opposite =.= haha then the paintball person ask me run for the block! im like "OMG WHAT?!" LOL then im like AHYAH LAST GAME JUST GO LAH! so i ran and took the block :D haha but then got hit at the body or something :D hahah! managed to run back with it :D YES! :D then i run out from base, running towards maze to take flag! Then got shot at my face and neck or something =.= hahaha cause got shot at my face, my mask block, but mask for hole =.= so the paint went onto my face, TASTE HORRIBLE AND IS DISGUSTING! LOL then my neck what was quite pain! Then got shot in my other leg also! AAHHA best idk alot of shots lah quite pain! then i managed to get the flag :D gave it to my cousin! AHAHA quite good lor i youngest please! playing with 3 aunties and 4 army boys :D couz raised flag and we won :D YAY!

ahaha got blood on my hand, but quite little! cousins said i did well YES i felt quite accomplished too! :D and then walked out, then another group waiting to go in, they were watching us! LOL then got one guy said to me "woah! you very good ah! gung ho!" AHHA idk what that means but i think its either but i googled it google says its enthusiastic and dedicated=.= HAHAHA omg flattered! :D was damn tired went home..

bathed, later going dinner with family. woah tired! realised i havent eaten lunchh yet! =.=

Signing off, mun.

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Posting over here with my iPhone because the whole table is messy and dirty =.= ahah I was doing art... =.= wow ahaha. Anyways,super tired omg ): last night slept at 1.30 am! And then now it's 12.12am! Great! ): open house tmr,imma go sch and just play tennis! :/ kk gtg bye!

Signing off, mun.

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Thursday, May 20, 2010

chionging chem and geog SIA, omg gonna sleep late again omgomgomgomg dieeee ):

Signing off, mun.

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hey

im damn tired. its 9+ and it feels like 12+ ): died during sch today. slept on the shelve in the library during LA. Washed my face during chem, and had fun during pe. THZ just had to throw the ball too high to i went to head the ball hehe :D funfun :D did chem SIA in the lab with drina =.= chinese was okay, math was okay, and then IH i was getting really tired again. mrlim talked about the toba trip :\ i dont really wanna go man :\ like no interest! have a feeling that im gonna be quite sian. after had a really tough decision on going CIP or not. didnt. rotted. =.=

kk bye my brain shutting down already i just wanna rest :

Signing off, mun.

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omg its... 1.50am ... and im 3/4 through my math SIA which is due on friday.. ): life sucks im gonna faint in sch tmr okay bye

Signing off, mun.

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Tuesday, May 18, 2010

.... this feeling sucks ): anything else, omg ANYTHING ):

anything to stop the corroding, anything to stop the guiltyness, anything to stop to hurt, the emptyness, the helplessness...

if my heart just stopped beating it'll probably feel better than this
dont be so sad ): pick yourself up

video montages of everything that hurts is playing in my mind now

ouch ): like....ouch... ):

Signing off, mun.

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falling in love with fearless all again! (:

yo. today was long. as i said, half the school was dead. like everybody went to band concert pls =.= hahaha! morning was almost late. had to take my freaking jacket out because they were filming pls =.= walao eh! sure got ppl stare i didnt dare look around =.= haha ohwells. who cares seriously. i know i fat pls =.= oh worst part is the tanline hahaha =.=

first period math, woah can die. everybody dying. i was smsing with the phone in my jacketpocket then teacher came to see. hahaha i didnt know he didnt know what im smsing=.= he was like "woah like that also can ah!" haha i said "yeah!" then he said "take out and sms lah! i wont scold you cause you're not janessa mah!" hahaha then i said really ah? and took out my phone and just smsed =.= (Y) hahaha i wouldnt have done that if i was in a better mood =.= anyway. mrlim gave us some geog time to put our heads on the table and rest! LA was boring. the exchange students from india came to attend our LA lessons! amanda asked me to go converse with them and say that im from the same area=.= but then i realised that...they were whiter than me... =.= omg wha-? lol!

recess went down and ate. went up and went to second level to stone. then SIL. was france stuff. bio was human repro. damn funny okay. the worksheet had the male and female reproductive diagrams. then some of them got labels like X,Y,Z etc. then same labeling for the two diagrams lah! AHA omg then grace was reading the question, the question was refering to the female repro system, basically to ovary lah. then i was looking at the male's one above it then she was like " what is the function of Y....ahyah..er...they release eggs lah!" AHHAHAHA then the Y on the male diagram was refering to the p**** hahaha then i was like "??!#*(&#!(*#&!)$?!?!? HUUHH~?#@)(#)(!()()$" AHHAHA! immediately got one image of the egg moving down! OMG okay this is getting sick but, yeah miscommunication quite funny! :D

thz bought us sweets to thank us for the concert and keep us awake, aw thanks thz :D cme went to library to watch finish the crappy movie=.= in the end they had --- =.= haha okay i didnt really understand it in the first place =.= talk about marriage again wth. watched video. went for chinese remedial. stoned....had some..idk? followed tw to shoot the corporate video. was her peronal caddy =.=

missed cip nvm i'll try to do tmr. waited for dodo for 30minutes due to the jam, omg the jam is surely gonna get worst ): did some push ups after dinner. drummed and here i am.

moompe is telling me to lock the door from now onwards. cause i think she read an atricle in the newspaper of some idk burglar case or something. so now shes making me lock all windows and doors in the house when im alone haha=.= serves my brother's friends right cause on monday they were all just walking in like nobody's business pls. never press doorbell, walk in, open the door without knocking, go upstairs. come down, take a bottle of drink, take biscuit and then bathe. and best thing is my bro isnt even home. I HATE IT! idk what to say already! I LIVE IN A HOTEL YOOHOOOO =.= damn irritating pls!? how can people just walk in walk out?!reminds me of what val said about my toilet =.= ----> high class toilet paper with pictures and automatic tap plus nice smelling soap.. =.= haha rubbish lah no its not high class! (:

oh i learnt something today! the video said that. if someone cant accept who you're becoming, or want to become. then dont even bother staying with that person! because people change, and everybody is not gonna be the same way they are when you first met them.

Signing off, mun.

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yo people.

back like 10 minutes ago, which is 12.10am..... back from band concert lol. took public transport so it took kinda long! plus had a lil snack at burger kings! (: sigh! band concert was okay (:

today morning..raining..someone played sims and should have just stayed at home playing it =.= cause it rained, didnt even meet shannon or huey teng! or played anything! okay i played my psp? =.= haha then classes, sianz. dont really listen in class cause its the week before sabbs, and my sabbs are just remedials so nth new! still wondering if i should go geog trip! :\

bio lesson i suddenly went crazy and felt like getting an angmo boyfriend =.= idk what happened to me i told grace i suddenly felt like hugging him=.= lol! oh wells! =.= recess played tennis with huey teng! funfunfun! (: hahaha went back, rushed to change, went for chinese. then LA. then class contact time. this years funfair...9am to 8pm?!?!!?!!? want die pls! btw i want to sell food :D wanted to sell hot dogs but class didnt really wanna sell hot dogs! either way i wanna sell some food :D heh! :D then after that er i had this failed attempt to shoot a rubber band at shaian..

and then it landed on the floor and we both rushed to pick it up. and then thank to her long nails she got it =.= and then i was stuck in that position for 5 minutes because i had shoulder cramp=.= LOL! loser can!!!!! =.= hahaha think got strain abit lah! still pain but nvm! (:

waited for saian and valesa! (: then cabbed back and jammed. they wanted to record bad romance so play lor! val could sing that really well! including the rap :D idk i anyhow make up cause i dont really know the song but they say anyhow improvise also can lah! o.o so like that lor! we kinda recorded! haha realised sometimes the guitar sounds like elephant! AHHA! :D bathed, ate black pper spicy pepper maggie noodles! and mushroom for gayda cause she cant take hot=.=

and we thought val could take hot..but she couldnt =.= she couldnt continue eating the noodles cause too hot=.= so in the end she use grenda's soup to eat with her noodles =.= LOSWER! then glenda and shaian died after hearing my brother's friend play the guitar =.= hahaha! while walking out the dogs were barking alot and val was like "see,all the dogs like me!" and then i was like "...?#!##^$? YOU BITCH AH?" LOL! :D tsktsk :D met drina and elena at coro. seriously was walking beside val and was like .... .. .. .. .. ... ... hahaha! :D

amanda missed the bus.... =.= erm, bus was too crowded for tw and eunice to come on..so.. =.= just us! hahaha :D long bus ride, finally got there and met the rest.

ohwells! cip tmr..sch tmr.... oh man hate my life i wanna play sims =.=

Signing off, mun.

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Monday, May 17, 2010

hey!

its 6.33am! realised i didnt post about yesterday. anyways, woke up at like 10+ or something, then stoned and then went out to meet shaian drina and hz for lunch at curry wok! :D first time there! O.O shocked? hhaha! (: drina just had brunch so she ate some white fungus and aloe vera thing! lol ! (: lunch damn nice pls! (: walked in, the sun was quite hot, was suntanning and all of them thought that i was weird =.= reached home, it was damn hot, then started on chem SIA.

drina and i were doing the game! LOL (: finished it after awhile, hz and shaian found some EXTREMELY useful info on the web! HAHA! :D after that hz almost died! drina wanted to play darts and they were throwing darts at my door =.= unintentionally of course! and drina lost my dart covers =.= AHHA! so we ended up crawling across the floor trying to find them! we even had a torchlight pls! AND drina is DAMN cheekopeh cause shaian and i were sitting on the floor then she was shining the torch around and then idk she was intending on shining at some corner or something but anyway it was near shaian's butt and nobody know what she was shining at =.=

she drina shined there and shaian was on the phone and she asked "whats that?" LOL then both of us were like ...?!#!&_ "#%*##(* ITS HER ASS!!" LOL! BIANTAI DRINA! :D ohwells! before they went dodo made them eat dessert haha! =.= drummed for some time! didnt do any work AT ALL because i suddenly because damn sian! maybe cause of the planning and all..

seriously, how can you dont know what to do during open house... WHAT?!!!??!

Signing off, mun.

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Sunday, May 16, 2010

sigh! ): some sian shitz now!

dont wanna do geog SIA, dont feel like doing any homework at all! i need to play! o.o

hate life hate life! SOMEONE HELP MY BRAIN STOP THINKING!

Signing off, mun.

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Saturday, May 15, 2010

WOAH TIRED AH TIRED AH! =.=

just came back from strings concert, seriously tired omg! with a lil headache! but nvm support friend plus it was quite nice! :D good job tingwei and the rest! :D

hmm, today was tiring man. morning woke up, went for drums. drums was really really cool today okay! i have been sorta fearing this ever since i started drumming! that the teacher makes us have "fill-in day" where we he just provide us with the rythm and we have to create our own fill-ins. OMT =.= LOL! omgz seriously my mind has nothing okay, NOTHING! like once we must fill in i just anyhow make up some shit =.= sometimes make until screw up also! but teacher say nvm everybody screw up dosnt matter! :D hahah :D quite fun in a way! was quite worried hhhaa! :D play until idk lost control of the stick and it flew away=.= ivy laughed at me pls =.= LOL! kuku but funny i laugh at myself too! :D

then after that, walked around ps finding gift, hoping that some inspiration will come to my mind! and it sorta in a way did! :D haha so hmm. deicded to go hunt for sims first. went to sim lim square, then erm tried to walk back to ps, and got lost?! and walk for some time, walked back to sim lim=.= im a loser lah pls! =.= haha was damn tired wanted to just take cab back but hhah heck! and my sandals strap broke T.T omg great need to buy new sandals?! GLUEGLUE! haha finally walked back, then bought the stuff that i needed to buy! haha. went to the shop, found 2 things and needed to decide to either buy both or buy 1! haha stood there for 20 minutes or something =.= hahaha! in the end decided to buy 1 because can use the other if need to buy again! :D hahaha cheapo me! :D

rushed home, bathed, packed, changed etc! rushed out again to get taxi and took taxi to clementi mrt to meet shannon! ate a little bit, bought bubble tea and then tried to make our way to the concert hall=.= but couldnt find so in the end just take taxi! and the taxi driver totally bad mood pls, ahyah heck the details i lazy type :D haha reached, saw lala :D hmm, stood around at the info counter there then we passed tw the flowers then went in!

hmm concert was quite nice! :D the first few songs were nice! :D hahah solo was nice too! :D hmm, the harp and the flute song was nice but then too long=.= shannon and i was like "omg i gonna fall asleep" haha! :D oops? the harp sound makes you feel like you're underwater! :D hahaha! :D damn nice! people kept clapping inbetween movements! tsktsk! :D

anyways, tired! still thinking about stuffs but can block out for the moment! btw told you already i dont care how much it seems like it but ITS NOT i repeat, ITS NOT! if you still refuse to believe it then go live in your own world bye.

tartar everyone! (:

Signing off, mun.

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Friday, May 14, 2010

Vanilla Twilight -Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear 'cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past, I'd whisper in your ear

Oh darling, I wish you were here

same ___, different ___, its not the same.

Signing off, mun.

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idk man, today didnt even start off well.

my head is like so messy now. theres so many things that hurting and troubling inside i dont even know what im thinking. its like everything is swirling and flying around all over the place i cant even take one out to examine the problem and sort it out properly.honestly, i AM that screwed! probably many of you must be thinking like "what the hell is your problem man cant you just not think so much and get affected and emo and just be happy?! like seriously?! no point getting so affected!" =.= lol idk okay think whatever you want wait until you try stepping into my shoes! =.=

i DID try to be happy and try to ignore and take everything well! But then everytime i try it works for awhile and then something else happens and it dosnt. i really got off with the wrong foot since the start of secondary school. shit im really one freaking problematic person and i really shouldnt be affecting anyone.

omg oh forget it this morning you can just rip my heart out and i wont feel anything! maybe i'll even thank you for it!EVERYTHING SUCKS RIGHT NOW sorry if i black face you or bad mood you or dao you or something. really cant help it ): idk whats my problem okay but im refusing help i dont want anybody to help and idk why!

and seriously, like what shannon said, i really feel like going up to strangle you. like, just for yourself, just for your feelings, you cause hurt to everyone around you and not even feel sorry or apologise for it but pretend that nothing happened? how can you be so selfish and not even feel a single bit guilty for this? probably many people can understand how you feel and maybe some people are even going through it, but, nobody, NOBODY will be as selfish, as psychotic as you. look what youve done , you made your mark so are you happy now? please stop showing everything to me beacuse i dont freaking care. you dont even deserve a paragraph here actually.

omg i really really suck someone please kill me ):

Signing off, mun.

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Thursday, May 13, 2010

tell me, and i'll do it
...as long as you're happy.

Signing off, mun.

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Wednesday, May 12, 2010

back from tuition, to chiong geog assignment now ):

having a partial stomach ache idk why pls dont ask me! ):

just remembered what lala said. hes only asking us to fight because if one stays, the other stays. so what now? is everything finalised? are we able to do anything? will whatever we think even matter to them? should be subjective or objective? or try to accomodate both? accomodate both seems to be impossible. idk
idk what to do! ): we're not even on the same page. we're not seeing the same things! and we're not hearing the same things.

with everybody like this, its impossible to do anything... i wonder if we should just give up. probably should have done something when all this started, because it shouldnt even have in the first place. we werent thinking it the correct way to start of with! maybe..just maybe i was..? i dont dare say that nvm.
im damn tired, please let this all be settled properly? :\ i wonder what y'all will think from my point of view because im hearing so many other things :\

im sorry it really doesnt seem like we can do anything....
... but then again theres no harm trying

Signing off, mun.

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yo guys, back from private.

hmm, idk tennis is fun okay, apparently coach thinks we're still playing well but im really not sure about that! serves are doing awesome today according to him! lala couldnt take some of it! forehand is like, hard but needs more spin, backhand seems quite good also! just my footwork? =.= need to loosen up! okay maybe cause im wearing school shoes =.= im so lazy omg.wonder why im having difficulty lifting my arm right now! o.o

hmm, today is shitnesday too. 2 shitty days in a row? this sucks seriously, i wonder how im gonna last! maybe cause the last 3 days were good! ): sigh! got back math today and please dont ask my marks ): kk morning, woke up damn tired! ): decided to walk to school myself because book only woke up at like 6.50 or something, wow? wnoder if he was late cause i didnt wake moompe up =.= hmm, first period PE, all of us were tired, haha! well, games were okay i guess? defended alot today, quite sure some people got fed up cause everytime they come close to our goal i send the ball flying the other side :D AHAH so it was like "GO GO GO SCORE!" -mun approaches and kicks the ball- "UUGGGGGHHH~~!!!" LOL :D hehehehe peace peace! :D

sweaty! went back to class, LA. did the assignment outline. nth much, wasnt really paying attention! haha drafted my essay which needs to be changed =.=recess. had sec 4 tennis meeting....which went practically SHIT. the whole team is dispersed please? nobody seems to care much except for me shannon and ht. idk. this sucks totally. tennis is screwed pls? am i the only one feeling that way? so freaking affected when i went back to class ): this week i cursed the most=.= sorry god ):

sigh fed up and stuff, and worst, got back math paper. ): can go commit suicide pls! was telling grace how i need a councillor cause i wanted to commit suicide! and that i need to take depression pills.. LOL?! grace said that i cannot die before her because she wants to die before everyone so that she wont be sad =.= omg i tell her idc cause its only one person everybody will forget me anyway! :D hahah wasting resources here remember! grace told me my parents purposely had me and i told her they just wanted to ahve fun! OOPS? :D hahah

chinese, just copied corrections, didnt pay attention, was studying chem spa. study finish, go chem SPA made one freaking stupid mistake idk how many marks i'll minus =.= great! after sch, no chem remedial! went down with shannon. talked and stuff. went up, shannon went through chem with me. i tell you im gonna forget everything she said again =.= lol! sorry i lousy student told you im stupid! ):

went for training. have a lil time before tuition so im posting! tuition till 9.30, then i need to do geog : and then theres math quiz tmr. omg seriously.. ):

hope the sad days past and the happy days come again! (:

Signing off, mun.

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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

im tired?

sigh, its TUESDAY and TUESDAYS are the WORST days of the week! the shitday in fact! ):

morning woke up, had on off stomach ache, book was damn slow pls. idk what he does upstairs! o.o Then went to sch, stoned awhile music went off. first period geog, got back geog SIA (or SAI) proposal. we got 15/25 pls?! and we already did state what he wanted and he gave a suggestion that is a better improvement of our "dead end" research question! sigh idk we were quite pissed! ohwells, now we have to think of another one! ): k i need to shit wait =.= k back =.=

then second lesson bio, got back bio, got like B4 or something damn low pls ): i expected higher lah! plus i actually know how to do the questions, just dont know what to mention! and that i didnt label the labels =.= AND my section C got 9/10 WHYY WHYY! ): i got study okay teachers omg if anyone is reading this I DID STUDY! im just stupid? idk what im doing in nanyang seriously my marks didnt even fit here in the first place! should have known that i cant make it from the start! ): ahyah, since im here, stuck then stuck lah, block then block, fan zheng i already walked until here, cannot turn back! ): just have to bear the consequences lah

math was boring? was so distracted i couldnt even concentrate ): had to go toilet to chill a little mrng thought i was tired. gah i think i did shit for my math too what is this? people study so little get higher than me and i study and fail =.= OH THANKS GOD this really helps i really kan bu kai ):

recess..tennis meeting....idk i have nth to say, teachers said they didnt wanna see anything bad on blogs so, not gonna say anything. but it was purely...sad? idk.. teared after the meeting, some cried! and then got affected to whole day ): seriously.. ): ): ): ): ): ): ): )':

LA was boring, was trying to cheer up, then chinese was boring, really couldnt listen the whole day! started sianning already. keep telling myself to stay positive be strong cheer up and all but it didnt work? =.= zzz! bio again, repro in plants. gave zihui and yuka gummies while they were talking to the teacher and both of them were there like having their hands on their laps in fists, quite funny! :D haha teacher found out and she asked who was the distributor.. o.o oops? :D

haha then, chiense remedial, nth much, went through paper. after that stoned with shannon awhile, we kinda revised chem. she thought me stuff actually. become tuition teacher already lah. omg i hate it when teachers ask me to dont play so much tennis and must study! i got study please! and i never play that much tennis anymore?! whats wrong with you people?! grahhh so tired ): nvm lah, results says everything i guess, so, im just stupid, really ):

hmm, CIP after that. signed in, librarian asked me to look at the machine, and left me there to decompose for 2 hours. =.= i was walking around then i gave up.LOL met meeling , we just sat in the corner and talked for 2 hours. WOW?! like seriously..they didnt even give me anything to do AT ALL! hahaha some CIP i have.

and theres chem SPA tmr, and i reached home at 10+, freaking tired ): i really wanna just give up omg.

then again, maybe cause its tuesday =.=

Signing off, mun.

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Monday, May 10, 2010

Hey, Soul Sister -Train

Hey, hey, hey

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you, and so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moon beam, the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know! Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me
You gave my life direction, a game show love connection we can't deny
I'm so obsessed, my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna, and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know! Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight

The way you can cut a rug, watching you's the only drug I need
You're so gangsta, I'm so thug, you're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see, I can be myself now finally, in fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you be with me

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know! Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight,
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey,hey
Tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Tonight

Signing off, mun.

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i feel damn loswer can! and its LOSWER not LOSER! LOL :D

morning played bb with shannon, she didnt feel like playing tennis so we went to play basketball! haha stopped after awhile! both of us also quite tired! hmm, then went up, talked, then played basketball with basketballers. went to class as sweaty again =.= alyssa says that my sweat smells like soap. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?! isnt that disgusting?! she says that maybe i put soap on my hair and let it dry so that when i sweat my sweat smells like soap =.= LOL wts.

lessons were okay i guess? at least had something to look forward to after school! :D hahah love it when theres something to look forward to! :D hmm, recess janessa performed on the showtime, which we were supposed to! but we're kinda doing it in term 3..MAYBE ONLY! haha! probably everyone is gonna BOO us and we're not gonna have any fans to clap for us =.= hahaha! lame . but rotting part of recess was fun! missed laughing so hard! :D :D went recess with shannon and jolyn! havent for a long time! (:

hmm, end of recess glenda came to ask about when we're jamming. Then damn funny pls she was still going on about the "so what shongs sould we jam!" AHHA i said that awhile ago and shes still laughing at it! haha :D yeah then i laugh laugh laugh! then some asshole walk past my class and wink and me pls! make me laugh/spaz even more then i leaned forward to laugh and knocked my head on my waterbottle! LOSER IM A LOSER! =.=

cct was seriously damn idiotic! i didnt even cheer =.= haha then after school went to vivo! (or maybe vivi =.=) bought sweets, popcorn, stoned, then went in! watched shutter island! my first thriller in the theatre pls! O.O omg the show quite gory! with disturbing scenes and some suspense and shock! AHAHA omg halfway throughout the movie i started shivering?! like..what?! LOL

hahaha loser hiding behind my popcorn =.= walao give me some credit for sitting troughout the movie? AHHA kept getting fed popcorn that was supposed to calm me down but would probably make me puke if i didnt stop =.= ohwells! :D halfway became quite tired and wanted to sleep =.= LOL? haiyo! :D

walked around after that then came home! :D hmm, having headache! headache sucks!

Signing off, mun.

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Sunday, May 9, 2010

Do You Remember - Jay Sean (Feat. Sean Paul, Lil' Jon)

Hey! Jay Sean
Yeah! Sean Paul
Lil Jon!
This one right here is for all the ladies
Ladies who want to take it back
(i don't know what Sean Paul said)
Holler at them Jay

I've been thinking about you
And how we used to be then
Back when we didn't have to live we could start again

There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back

(Yo Jay Sing for these ladies!)

So long since you've been missing
It's good to see you again
How you how you doing
And how about we don't let this happen again

There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Jay Sean Do You Remember
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)

Yo ay girl yo bring it back to the time when you and me had just begun
When I was still your number one
Well it might seem far-fetched baby girl but it can't be done
I've got this feeling fire blazing and it's hot just like the sun
Know you feel it too my girl just freeze up may the good vibes run ...
Girl take a sip of the champange take a lil trip down my lane my girl
While you noe every night you'll feel alright look I tell you dis girl atta My world
Dont change imma na Rearange Ay girl imma tell you straight dis atta my world
How many years do you want come kiss dis I know you miss this
That's what I heard that's what I heard that's what I heard word girl
(written by ear as heard by Mj22)

There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories

Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Let's bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Let's bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Oh)

Let's bring it back

Signing off, mun.

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Saturday, May 8, 2010

yo!

haha today was a better day! :D AHHA better than the shitty days so if i was happy it would be a normal day! LOL :D tsk me! :D ohwells! :D morning woke up cause i was too hot =.= AHHAA tsktsk! :D only to find out that my phone number was written on the board of the drama room! o.o hahaha in the end its cause amanda wrote it there yesterday=.= LOL! tsk amanda! :D

anyway, went for drums, hahah i always listen first time then play! haha cause i still reading the notes =.= then he say i shouldnt i should just play! LOL omg? nvm i dont believe in that! wanted to say something but ohwells! :D hahaha went to taka to walk around after that! then moompe finished her facial and went to pick me. went home, idk, main event of the night was that dodo and moompe went to the casino=.= since afternoon =.= HAIYO! hope they dont get addicted!

and that i was playing with my webcam hehe :D learned how to play hey soul sister on guitar and sang and play! :D so amused play for damn long! :D and holiday is damn nice to play on drums :D I WANNA JAM!

Signing off, mun.

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Friday, May 7, 2010

havent been blogging the past few days!

was like some emo shit person! and STILL am! idk when can i ever be happy overall again! ): maybe never? =.= ahyah anyway, everything feels different.

just came back from md concert! was kinda sweaty stinky and sticky! dressed like sai when everybody dress so nice =.= haha ohwells. training got canceled cause coach was sick and nobody came. he was like "woah i walking zigzag already mun!" haiyo! tsk get well soon coach! accompanied shannon to go to her napfa, she stomach muscle ache until cannot do sit up but in the end got force lah. hahaha! (: good job shannon! :D

went to find huizhen and amanda at coro after that. opposite fairprice was the band and it was closed so it was all black and there was reflection. and i cant believe amanda walked towards the reflection! LOL after the md concert when we saw kymberly at the backstage and huizhen wanted to call her huizhen went like "eh dorcas!" LOL damn funny pls! oops guess who was supposed to hand up her r&r today and didnt =.= wonder if i'll get a scolding!

realised that theres alot of projects and work to do! seriously its not really rest lor, rest also no time to rest please! sigh ):

seriously wondered if i lost my feelings? its just the dull down feeling almost every second. this sucks! and i still dont get why im living, gosh.

fine say whatever you want, i know im stupid.

ahyah damn loser back ache arm ache leg ache i think i pulled a muscle in my thigh toe pain i cant crack my ankle so its pain =.= haha omg i like ahma? please lucky no knee pain if not i can go die=.= play basketball play until so lan still fall down somemore =.= wow? number 1 loser!

Signing off, mun.

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Thursday, May 6, 2010

yup perhaps anything

Signing off, mun.

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Wednesday, May 5, 2010

stupid bio

Signing off, mun.

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Tuesday, May 4, 2010

just fiinished chem, how about i have no idea AT ALL as to how i would do! probably like fail? =.= its always fail for chem anyway, AND MATH?! OH MY MAMA I HAVENT CANCLED TRAINING TMR =.= shitshitshitshit sigh idk lah.

Signing off, mun.

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Monday, May 3, 2010

so its chem tmr o.o

the final week is finally here shall i say? :D haha well...jiayou everyone! hang in there cause theres only these few days left lets just chiong and get done and over with so that we dont regret not studying enough after blocks and then we can play guilty-free :D

hahah im going through my 3rd time doing chem notes again, somehow nothing much is going into my head i really dk what to do anymore! just hate chem too much? :\ ohwells! what can i do! its chem! right now singing the "yo" and "ohoh~" in baby cause ive gone crazy? o.o

well, still have the last r&r article to do!

Things to do:
1)complete last r&r
2)complete math pretest worksheet, try more math questions in the revision booklet
3)IH SIA presentation this thurs
4) Chinese SIA yue du
5)hand in overdue math SIA =.=
6)Do LA block test corrections
7) complete 7 more hours of CIP
8) Fill in NYAA booklet

okay thats about it, aside from the mugging theres those to do! well hmm, just gonna have to put those outta my mind and heck until i finish blocks? :\ i guess so? sigh thats the bad thing about spreaded blocks? :\ ohwells! look forward to june!!!!!

anyways, had tomyam steamboat during family dinner yesterday! have yet to have the class tomyam steamboat outing hehe :D was plannig on thurs but mel and shaian has cca DAMMIT! friday md's concert on the floor~ o.o omg all gonna be beggar! (Y)

jiayou everyone! just these few more days! (:

Signing off, mun.

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Saturday, May 1, 2010

OH! and i owe this picture! :D hahah cheers! :D the haunting balloon that i THINK i killed =.=

Signing off, mun.

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ah, full up from eating shit! :D

hahaha that sounds wrong i know! but let me explain! nobody is home right now and hence theres no dinner and we just came back from a really really big grocery shopping! :D kk i shall start from the start of the day (:

woke up at about 9 cause it was too hot=.= (y) ate breakfast, bathed, studied a little, went to thompson plaza for groceries! :D haha dodo was parking the car so went to get the groceries first. right, then after shopping for sometime, and my cart was relatively full, moompe called me and was like "where are you? we're at the grocery store already!" haha then when i found them in the grocery store, they had another trolley full of groceries=.= then three of us just stood there stoning at each other AHAHHA! damn funny! then my dad "EHHHH! O.O DODO! how come you have another trolley!" then i realised that my mum told my dad that i went to popular=.= hahaha then they were like "hahaha nvm lah we'll have 2 trolleys" and the trolleys had almost the same things =.= (Y) so lotsa groceries there

went home to unload, then went out again...in the sports car=.= hahaha gaigai-ed a litte (: well at least everyone felt better! :D studied. hahah then i went home, no dinner, DAMN HAPPY CAUSE i can invent my own food :D

hahaha hmm yknow the focaccia bread? :D the damn nice one hehe i went to toast it with singles cheese on top, then i went to make a sausage :D haha then cut into slices and put inside, OMG THE BREAD AND CHEESE DAMN NICE CAN?! like ALONE?! omg esp that bread toasted is DAMN NICE! :D haha plus the sausage! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D hahaha! :D and ate a cookie :D

hmm, left alchohols and acids, and peteroleum! hope i can finish by tonight! :D

Signing off, mun.

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