Sunday, January 31, 2010
oh my god i read amanda's pm as fever instead of federer and almost died of shock can!
WOW thanks to his awesome name lah!
hahaha smiled after that, and felt that my cheeks were stiff. hm wonder why.im sure i know why(:
Signing
off, mun.
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i realised the reason thats stopping me from self-mutilating is because im too tired :\
yeah we fell off track, into another planet, no people, no food, no water,just pain, just depression, just the hopeless feeling,just the lack of strength to pull ourselves up.I think lying down on the spot that im on will really help over time. but time is moving and we cant do nothing.
have to continue, even if it means to crawl
havn't i had enough already :( When is all this gonna stop? when can i get out of this place? one after another,its like,just when you were recovering from the previous war, something else starts again..
it was the best thing that i have...now it seems so useless but i care so much for it..
god when you're giving out the troubles, dont forget to skip me.my moood is affecting my attitude and character again :\ i dont wanna stop talking to my parents i dont wanna get pissed with them.the last thing that could happen is me getting pissed even when friends talk to me.
what do you do when the most important people dont understand? :( whats wrong here why cant my troubles go away.am i trying to lug too many things? am i even going in the right direction?
hello? earth? is there anyone on you that can help?
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January 31, 2010
Sunday
12.50AM
To: Feelings
Dear Feelings,
Hey! You've been out of reach lately! What happened to you? Perhaps you're not feeling very well. I'm sorry i might have cause it,the world outside it really crazy and everything comes crashing down. I know that brings you down too, and im so sorry i cant stop the troubles from coming. But really, please do get well soon. I know its really gonna be hard with the environment you're in but..hopefully, just hopefully a miracle will happen and you'll get well? Please do okay? I really depend on you, alot. lately I can't concentrate on anything including my comps on Monday I feel so useless cause you're not feeling well and I can help it please get well I wanna get on with my life :( Get well soon, its been years and i miss the cheerfulness you used to have!(a few years ago) Please have some hope :( I can't stand your sickness anymore :(
get well soon
Love,
mun
Signing
off, mun.
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Saturday, January 30, 2010
MORE MASK CREAM PLEASE!
shall do it until my desire is gone. grenda are you with me?
:'(
Signing
off, mun.
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this is so irritating urgh!
why must i be like that ah! i'd prefer the problem happen in class!
Signing
off, mun.
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haiz
im like depressed for the whole of today? idk
woke up in the morning and was too tired again, as usual, went to drums,played blues, quite boring? i'd want pop. went to the grocery store are jeleta did some shopping. was too hungry and realised that i only ate an oreo since morning hence i was starving. by the time we finished and i was waiting for dodo to go and get his free things, i was like already in the middle of nowhere,digging the grocery bags for the ham that i just bought=.= so unglam hah=.=
dunno in the car to jeleta and on the way back i didnt have any mood to talk to dodo so just brushed him off when he talked to me. reached home and put the grocery away. other parents are like telling their children not to get boyfriends/girlfriends and dodo is here asking me why dosnt my brother have a girlfriend and he was trying to find out why he dosnt have one: "dodo, how come gorgor dosnt have a girlfriend ah? you think he has a girlfriend anot? .... not like hes not good looking, its average what! Got nice built, good height." =.= next time i wonder if he'll ask me why im not having a boyfriend in jc=.=
played guitar after that...eh wait no. was stuffing myself with ham and seaweed and gummies. woah like i havent had a full meal in ages. played guitar, played drums,played guitar,played com. sigh
fam members came cause dodo cooked "shark fin" it dosnt taste like it in my opinion.? oops sorrry!
hmm my voice is still..dont know, low, soft, but better! haha
ah give up tired and no mood =.= bye
Signing
off, mun.
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Friday, January 29, 2010
maybe only pain can cover the feeling.
temporarily
it cripples you man:'(
ouch :'( :'(
i suggest a new pen knife, cause then it'll not be rusty.
how bout that?
its feels like a scapel cutting through your heart without being numb..?
but nevertheless, outside, we still dawn on a mask
for those who dont understand this at all or know just abit, please dont judge until you've been through it.
Signing
off, mun.
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:(
my insides feel so horrible right now i feel like just taking them out..haiz. this cant go on man.i get depressed everytime i start thinking of it and not like i can stop myself from thinking about it.this feels horrible :( when can i put this down? :(:(:(:(:(
shall just post, hope by the end i'll feel better.
morning pccg, did some career thing, useless i got social worker i want to work as a police/pe teacher or in the army. like if one day singapore were to engage in war i'll join it. and die for someone,and get my dying wish. btw woke up this morning and couldnt open my eyes hence didnt eat breakfast just drank a whole cup of drink cause my throat was like urgh :( sore throat today, or rather, throat pain from all the screaming. so my voice is like lower than a man's voice and nobody could hear what i say unless i speak at their ear=.=
math was oaky ih was okay. training was okay....
was suppose to rally with amanda and then halfway while warming up she tripped on her own foot and fell :( hmm was so freaking scared when she fell k omg. her hands was shaking and so were mine=.= Her hand was numb for awhile and she had some scratches but luckily shes okay. pheew. got some first aid for her and then she was okay! get well soon amanda! (:
jerseys came, mines too big as always.dont want to talk about it urgh i just realise i have no mood to do anything. was too nervous/scared/not confident so for the first match coach k wanted me to play singles but i pulled out cause i know that i'll be so nervous my knees will shake :\ so im playing doubles,ee im scaredy cat man.haish dunno why everytime i play sports/get nervous/get scared or angry or what ever my hands shake. im weird, again, as always. =.=
just realise that im still in combined schools =.= haha actually i dont know what is combined schools, does that mean that i sorta represent the country? are all in combined schools counted as a national player? hm dont know, i only know im not fit to be there anyways.
played bb with shannon after that. haish. eee no mood liao.
munz please get over this soon :\ life seems so....disturbing idk i only know this feeling sucks and having this feeling popping up as and when it likes isnt a nice thing. hmm sometimes it feels so horrible i feel like curling up and squatting there till i feel better. sucks so much i think my face is permanently stuck in a :( for whats left of the day. haiz :( actually im quite glad that i had a sore throat today. cause halfway into training, actually after amanda fell down, i was starting to concentrate to try to save her then i stopped trying to talk. then i started thinking and stuff. and its a perfectly good excuse to remain silent cause i didnt feel like talking much anyway.
gah this feeling go away! your making me feel breathless and horrible and depressed.perhaps if someone shot me now it would feel better,idk,someone stab me or something.
i realised that to a certain point, people dont understand anymore.i guess its cause they dont go through this kinda thing. hmm grenda im glad you understand how i feel :\
@#$#*_+#)(%#+)*@&$@*()$_)%(_#)+# this sucks :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:( i feel like self-mutilating
:(
mun please get well before the match :(:( please :(
i feel like crying now but can't :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
how to feel better :'(
Signing
off, mun.
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y'know im having this thought about my whole team joining the army and me dying for them =.= hmm, probably one of the best ways that i can die (:
Signing
off, mun.
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oh URGH im aching everywhere. training tmr, ah, damn!
oh i forgot to mention,
merry christmas my hongzi got stained with the mangosteen potassium manganate :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Signing
off, mun.
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Thursday, January 28, 2010
sacred bottle :D with sacred jacket and tank top :D and sacred people with BLG spit :D haha :D we're awesome amanda :D
OMG BOYS LIKE GIRLS CONCERT ROCKED MY ASS! :D
haha like SERIOUSLY! okayokay shall start from the front.
nothing happened in school, kept meeting glenda by accident? like three times? or 4? i dont know. then went to solve the freaking jersey, then went home.
went to hc to meet book and his friends and siwei. went together to sentosa, who now has a fairyland castle and a hard rock HOTEL =.= and it really changed. went in to the place, was quite crowded haha. aiyah, skip till the concert start luh.
just before the thing started i found amanda she lost her friend!AAHAH then like before it even started her friend vomitted :\ clautrophobic. hmm ohwells. Then we tried to squeeze in front but the no avail at first! just stood there and screamed our lungs out! They started with love drunk and i was so freaking crazy amanda and i were screaming the words and jumping! haha then we tired to push further. like few minutes into the concert someone had to be taken out i dont know why :\ its scary i was scared man! held to amanda more carefully after that
haha amanda and i were linked throughout the whole concert lah! like held each other hands so that we dont get lost! oh yeah then they sand two is better than one and i was hoping like mad that they would introduce taylor as a surprise guest but they didnt :( well at least he met taylor and i met him! :D Haha then they were thowing out drumsticks and picks throughout the concert and amanda and i would scream like mad womans when they threw one although we were so far from it=.= Then they gave like 2 LG phones T.T
Then best part was they were throwing their water bottles that they drank from out too! haha i lost hope and then that was when martin drank and threw his bottle our way! i got so excited but then lost hope cause its direction wasnt at me but i got sprayed and got so wet! Then i turned and realise that the bottle had landed onto amanda WHO WAS WEARING A TANK TOP and the water most probably spilled into her tank top cause her whole outfit was wet! IM STILL WET NOW! :D with the water he drank from :D ahhaha but good thing is we got the bottle he drank from and was crazy and we drank from it too! :D heh :D
were were quite far in and then the crowd was pushing like mad, and once the whole crowd litreally fell, not whole, the people in front, and then i was unlucky and fell too =.= dammit i was squashed can! then felt someone trying to help me get up and then i tried to look for amanda cause she was originally at my left and she wasnt there and i got so worried=.= Then amanda was at my right and she was the one who helped me up! haha she didnt fall surprisingly! haha thanks amanda i feel so touched! :D Then we crazied through the rest of the conert drenched in water and sweat! ahaha.
anyways it was a really fabulous night im so breathless and tired and wet and thirsty! haha thanks amanda for a great i night i know it couldnt be better! :D haha :D
woah i cane belive theres sch and training tmr! looks whos gonna be tired! o.o oh yeah my voice is really low now but i bet it'll be good by tmr cause IM STRONG! :D
im like telling the whole world that we got his water bottle that he drank from now :D
alyssa says that i ahve BLG spit on me now! LOL
hmmm,not that i dont like you but..come on man. its so unfair.
i'll post more tmr,tired
i still dont have enough of fruits! o.o
Signing
off, mun.
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Wednesday, January 27, 2010
hey guys
haiz. i dont know why i feel like sighing! today we had pe, ran, my freaking timing for 3 rounds is 4.11 minutes im so sad T.T okay lets see, 4.11 divide by 3 is 1.37 so 1.36 times...aiyah, lazy liao =.= go do yourself :D haha then soccer was super funny, first we were playing monkey passing with our hands then i dont know i wanted to snatch the ball away from jingwen and ended up crawling on the grass AHAH! :D hmm i feel like getting dirty now! But then its such a guy thing girls usually hate dirt! EHHHH O.O shit im weird
other lessons was okay im too tired to say. oh during recess the FINALLY gave me my ANOTHER surpise present!
recap!
1st prez: from melissa, shaian, amanda etc! where amanda was carrying the cake and erm walking to the table like a funeral and singing some funeralish song! LOL DAM FUNNY
2nd prez: from huizhen etc, a taylor swift picture puzzle! :D awwww you guys are so nice man! :D thanks :D
im not going to mentioned what happened when i was on my way to the library during chinese cause its embarassing. =.=
then after sch grenda and i rushed to aor! missed 156! lol. talked alot about ___ on the way, after aor also talked alot about __. haiz. today i asked yuka why we are living and she says, "er...to do things..?" =.= anyways, sorta emoed and felt down after that. went to kap to have lunch again lol. hmm departed being confused and depressed again!
eh nowadays i keep wanting to play sports eh! tmr dodo is fetching me to sch early perhaps i should bring a basket of balls and practice my serve in the dark=.= heck if i cant see anything luh. oh yeah after that had training! served a whole basket of balls, had the er kill-the-second-serve-and-move-up-to-volley drill. Then played match with coach! was quite calm today, shots were quite controlled but didnt run that much! surprisingly after serving the whole basket of balls i kinda cant serve already=.= stupid
learning lab was, okay...i told the teacher i didnt bring the homework again but actually didnt do it=.= today we learn about hitler and stuff. and i realised its worst compared to WW2 in sg! To a certain extent its really interesting! anyways, my dad was drinking and hence he was late picking me up!
in the car he was going on about how moompe was paranoid and stuff and that since they're gonna support me for 18 years i must support them for at least18 years too =.= LOL he says next time we must all live in the same place so that he can at least go play golf=.= i told my mum that and she was mumbling to herself about him only knowing how to play golf and drink and my dad was giggling to me about her nagging=.= why do parents always think that when they're old they'll end up in the hospital! :\ urgh pains me everytime they say that! i dont know im quite sure that dodo will end up having some liver problem -touchwood- because he drinks beer like water hmm i asked my mum how to stop him! She says the only way is to tell him myself cause he'll only listen to his children and not his wife=.= lol hmm, haiz, actually i've never told anyone but i secretly tried to hide some beer away before! of course didnt work! just hope he stops getting drunk sometimes!
hmm reminds me i need something to stop the cut on my thumb from splitting everytime i hit a ball! disgusting right!
haiz when can i put all this down :(
Signing
off, mun.
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I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and everything's all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there would find me
'Til then I'll walk alone...
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
Ahhh-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I walk alone
I walk a
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I'll walk alone
Signing
off, mun.
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Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
Signing
off, mun.
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Tuesday, January 26, 2010
i was skinning the peach! peaches are awesome
and i realise that as i picked up the small fruit knife to cut the fruit, my old scar ache :( is it going to be like that whenever i pick the knife up? haiz
Signing
off, mun.
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i think my eyes are sunburnt! not really sunburnt but red from the sun exposure o.o either that or im crying without knowing it =.=
reminds me of susi's question in bio class today:
"teacher! can your eyes get sunburnt!"
"oh no! your eyes cant get sunburnt! Your skin gets darker because of the melanin, but your eyes dont have melanin"
LOL omg then i was totally imagning your eyes getting darker! GOSH if our eyes had melanin, i think eh i'll look quite scary=.= btw mrs wong also told us that some glands dont secrete enough hormones and then some people's eyes are different! like notice that you cant see the white part of your eyes aobve and below, because your eyelids are blocking them! But then some people, you can see the top and bottom white part of the eye! which might look a lil scary!
oh wait, i shouldnt be talking about bio lesson =.= gonna guitar now bye!
eh i was thinking, what am i living for! theres no meaning to life! I'd rather die for someone. Alyssa says that theres no one for me to die for now. Hmm wonder if the world is really gonna end in 2012
Signing
off, mun.
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hey guys!
today omg was quite horrible =.= morning during geog i was like already closing my eyes! >.< break was okay, went down with the gang, ate erm, a burger i think! haha. Then jolyn smsed me and told me got BEL meeting at 11.20! then i was okay..oo okay, got time to laze around! LOL when we went there they were already like in the midst of the meeting!WTS! great=.= okay nvm i shant care vices are like not recognised and looked down! so hmm, just do my job in the team thats all! heck the meetings? =.= then we were like trying to eavesdrop on them but it was too muffled! So we were walking around the hall waiting for them to finish like idoits=.= then finally cannot stand it we went back! LOL and stupid jolyn chew wanted to go down and buy a drink at the last 5 mins! WTS! lol went down anyway!
LA was up and it was slack time! i wrote everything with my non-dominant hand and HAHA it was so fun :D borrowed tricia's pdd and was assigned a poem but nobody came to share with me so we yuka and dorcas ended up doing my poem cause theirs was too hard! LOL was trying to reply tricia's letter also! Im not ver good at doing sneaky things in class T.T Chinese was fun, the laoshi didnt come, sadly she had sore throat from ANOTHER teacher! o.o then we were given the chinese ci yu to fill up and i ended up talking to alyssa and her judo friend! Er i forgot her name argh paiseh!
Went back for chem and was stoning! Alyssa Sihui and I were talking alot and sihui was making funny faces and i kept giggling from time to time. BUT THEN the worst part came where alyssa was touching the bottom part of her arm and was like "why is this here?" HAHA it was already dam funny! Then sihui tried to explain that alyssa once asked why when she bends down all the fats goes in front and when you stand straight all the fats goes to the back. And then she said "yah, alyssa said that when she bends down all the fats goes to the front and when she straight-fumble-straightens up all the bats go to the fack." AHHAHA OMG im litreally LOL-ing now!
AHAHHAA And that was the part of the day where i laughed so darn hard okay and lesson wasnt even over yet! Had to bend down and cover my face to muffle the sound cause i couldnt help but laugh! AHAHAH Then when i finally came up sihui and alyssa was laughing too but then they suddenly said "omg mun ning your face is so red!" haha then alyssa: "HAHA omg yeah i thought i'll never get to see it! But i finally did!" AHAHAHHA OMG freak im still lol-ing!
Then patgoh stared at me cause shes trying to get the class to xing li and then i had to cover my mouth cause i couldnt stop! AHHAHA! I was laughing like throughout the whole way back to class and then i took my bag and then went down to the courts alone and i couldnt stop laughing either! AHAH! OH MY GOD!!!!!
from chem lesson: sihui,alyssa and I, i conclude that:
word of the year: shittymama
phrase of the year: your bats will go to the fack HAHAHAHA! OMG CANT STOP LOL-ING SOMEONE SAVE ME!! LOL gah i laugh until my ribs pain man! =.=
oh yeah then training. was quite high, from the self-laughing and then there were only amanda and i for sec 4s cause everyone's at remedial=.= the sun was like so hot today k! somemore i was wearing black(serves me right) and it reminded me of the gingerbread ovenbreak game=.= partnered tricia against amanda and lala and lost AAHHA! Played shannon right after that and made her run alot! :D i wanted to run as much as i was making her run too! but then didnt get the chance to HAHA! Damnz! eh does people's back feel suannish after tennis?oh and I think i became darker OHNOS! ITS PITCH BLACK MESS NOW! O.O
anyways, sorry i dont want to feel this way! its only when you're with ___ that i feel you change :( other that than i love you although you have changed!:D
feedback to self: please remember to try to control your anger on court and not smash your racket, thank you! btw i need to break my strings, like FAST, hopefully by this week! i've still got some running energy! adrenal glands you can stop producing adreneline! :D i feel like eating fruits URGH WHOS A FRUIT MANIAC LIKE MEEE!!!! i know im weird :(
suddenly after reading weiyan's letter i remembered my 2009 birthday where WE HAD MUD PIE! and remember that WE ALL DIDNT HAVE APPETITE! so the cake was there melting and we ended up playing with it AHAH! THen it melted and then the front of the cake reminded nerp of squirdward's nose AND WEIYAN COULDNT STOP LAUGHING! and we all laughed so hard i almost puked and weiyan literally lied on the floor and puked after laughing somemore! AHHAH. let me quote her letter, the process was : "OMG SQUIRWARD'S NOSE OMG! WTF,-VOMIT-OMG THIS IS DAMN DISGUSTING! OMG! -VOMIT- OMG CHICKEN!!!! HAHAHA!"
LOL she laughed so hard she vomitted her chicken=.= GROSS RIGHT! AHAHAH i almost vommited too and while she was vomitting nerp and i were like clutching the table for support from laughing! AHHAH DAMN FUNNY LAH!
haha yeah, you're right, its so cool how we still keep in touch :D thanks to nicholas/nerp/nick and weiyan for being such awesome friends since
primary school! :D love you guys! :D
this O.o
Signing
off, mun.
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morning, feel like playing some sports during recess. partly to keep my legs active and not stone by the time training stars o.o i wanna see taylor's new house! :D
tell you its a long day im gonna hate it ! :(
Signing
off, mun.
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Monday, January 25, 2010
heyo!
today was okay, in a way quite boring too.
Morning:
Had traning with teammies, although only like 5/7 turned up, and shannon came along so its 6!lol. I played with ht! haha had some strokes going there, and sweat quite alot!
Bio:
Morning first class bio we had discussion and then we were suppose to do the bio as 2.1 in like pairwork for the discussion and i just ended up with yuka! haha we're doing a comic strip and we fail art! o.o
Chinese:
Chen lao shi had a sore throat so we had li jie! haah! it was okay, quite easy? i wonder if we are actually given passages that are easier than the rest! o.o well its the first li jie so hard to say i guess! Finished on time and went down for recess lol!
Recess:
walked around with the loner in 412=.= LOL! jk! im a loner too! O.O so i guess its the two loners from 410 and 412 =.= okay that dosnt make a loner anymore. eh sorry lame. did nothing . went to pop and was queueing up for jolyn's stupid wangwang and my gummy and we waited for like the whole recess?! then halfway the queue was too long and all the friends who came in were like asking jolyn to help them buy! HAHAHA so lucky they never ask me cause i wouldnt know how ot reject! o.o CCT meeting after that, gotta celebrate the feb's birthday and get the pigs eyes as a class! we needa do the notice board too! and we're suppose to print out pictures of anything we like and i cant seem to find photos of taylor that is 4r! =.=
Math:
super boring, urgh math is really getting into me now! :( at first it was okay, till we reached the graph part i sorta lost interest! awmanz not good! :(
LA:
went to com lab to discuss our oral presentation im doing on child warriors! hahah elenana insists that we do a short skit before presenting so capture the audience's attention =.= LOL im suppose to die like 10 million times i think!? but not confirmed cause dorcas strongly objects! LOL!
CCT:
did nothing again, class bombarded mr lim with graces dress questions and i was like T.T and everybody was talking about it! :( I DONT WANNA GO GRACES K! :( one banana suit with heels is enough! i dont wanna wear heels anymore man! EVEN WORST, DRESS! :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
grace suggests that we both bring a tux together so that we dont have to go! LOL! :D waytogo fellow jedi! :D
Kranji: -from here onwards it might be a little boring and not understandable so dont read if you dont want to!-
went to kranji war memorial with jolyn dannie hannah and hueyteng today! it was quite nice! eh actually, when people tell me stuff like this about the history its really interesting! but taking history as a subject is a whole different thing=.= and thumbs up to those who fought for singapore even thought singapore wasnt their homeland! i mean, to fight and die for and in a country that is not your homeland is really noble! and imagine if you were one of them, during war, you had to have the feeling of fear, hide in places, try to kill enemys, cover your fellow commerades and try to keep yourself alive! hmm, whats going through my mine is a scene whereby im one of the soldiers and it comes to the time where i have to come out and face the enemy cause its either fight,get killed or get killed. Imagine that feeling man :( imagine being put into a haysack and being stabbed repeatedly till you bleed to death :( imagine being hung upside down and having a knife stabbed through your stomach and dragged all the way down :( Really, i wished i could be as noble as them :( really makes me wanna join the police force/army. haiz, thanks to those who have fought for singapore and died gloriously! i wanna be as brave as you guys! i can tell more but then i figure it'll not be good for those who are reading this cause it might be boring=.=
at the same time im curious how it would be like if suddenly singapore turned back to the war state in 1945 o.o anyways, kranji makes me wanna dislike the japanese for doing all this to us! THERE WAS THE GENEVA WAR RIGHTS OKAY! you cant force POVs to sign a "i-will-not-escape-form" its taking their rights away! :( haiz. anyways, good to sir winston churchill who signed a mickey mouse signature to save the people in the POV hospital :D
anyways, played basketball after dinner, played guitar and now its time to bath and study and do homework! tomorrow is a long day :(:(:(
this is blueberry tea btw=.= looks so nice right! :D pictures of nice food makes me happy! :D
changed my fb picture! HAHA i edited this photo! :D plus my nickname! (which is black mess,named by shaianlim. or another one that i suddenly remember was darkdark, by sarahchua=.=)
bet you can't see anything! :D
Signing
off, mun.
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i just realised that i forgot to mention in my saturday post that when i went to my ahma house they were all wanting me to dye my hair! o.o and i was the only one not so enthusiastic about it! lol so i didnt :D
anyways, morning now, feeling really weird, little stomachache-ish, urgh, hate this feeling :(
Signing
off, mun.
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Sunday, January 24, 2010
ohmo why am i tired at 10? o.o
Signing
off, mun.
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ohyeah! hi here! :D
haha yesterday and today was like okay, a little boring though!
Saturday!
Morning woke up and was like soo soo tired. Then we to drums! went learnt many new songs, mainly from grease, and then i bought a capo and a pick! YEAH! finally the lost capo will be replaced! :D Dodo and moompe couldnt fetch me to i had to take bus home! LOL! and walk! And it was so hot man! anyways, no harm getting darker its normal for me=.= Then i was at home for like quite long! i was suppose to do my ih assignment but i didnt feel like! so i just played guitar and replied letters! :D Haha then after that went to my ahma house to eat dinner! We had curry noodles that tasted like mee goreng according to my mum! o.o and the salad was really nice, plainly because there was tangerine in it and i only ate the tangerine! o.o lol! after that i went home and like did nothing again, wanted to play drums but moompe and my aunties and uncles came to play mahjong so i couldnt :( played more guitar instead! i learnt the front part plucking of "bless the broken road" and i feeel so accomlished! :D Thats about it, started on the new book of the alex rider series! its a nice series. lol boring day! o.o
Sunday!
Canceled tuition cause ashley was sick and coulnt make it and i needed to have a good nights sleep since forever! so slept till 11+ heh :D Woke up, went to thompson plaza to get groceries. actually i got the groceries and dodo got the lunch! LOL i felt so ahma cause denise and shaian said they were having dance class and i was there getting groceries! o.o! LOl but groceries is fun, i love groceries stores! :D Came home,ate lunch and sorta forced myself to start on ih =.= yeah i finished it and im probably gonna get quite low! Anyways, went outside and played guitar, and playing guitar outside the house is so intersting with all the wind blowing and the atmosphere, just that it was so hot AGAIN! my gosh! After comps my classmates are gonna see like a blue pullover and white skirt walking around and nothing else! ERGH nervous! :\:\:\
played drums, ate dinner, and played more guitar! LOL guitar rocks man! :D my fingers are like sore and stuff but then idc! I think thats why i can sorta type faster now because i sorta gained more arm strength pressing the strings? IDK! o.o
btw strawberry with whip cream rocks :D my mum keeps asking me to ask my brother to go with me to the boys like girls concert tickets he gave me! i asked him aready but he wants me to ask my friends first! o.o aw! anyways, training tomorrow morning again, i feel like playing a little basketball later. And then theres erm, baozhi =.= lol sianz and our chisia died cause we cant contact lls T.T
oh sharks! bio quiz tmr! o.o
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Saturday, January 23, 2010
eh! the multiple cuts/scratches on my palms are really irrtating!
anyways, i love taylor's new song(as always), its called today was a fairytale! :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e9WNiu-S4Hc if you wanna hear it! :D
Today Was A Fairytale -Taylor Swift
Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you’re around
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
You’ve got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is it’s getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you’re around
Yeah yeah
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you’re around
I can feel my heart
It’s beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can’t put this down
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Signing
off, mun.
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between friends, if one is not happy, means there's something wrong right?
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Friday, January 22, 2010
heyo guys!! :D
haha THANKS TO EVERYBODY WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND GAVE ME PRESENTS AND HUGGED ME! :D haha thank you from the bottom of my heart! :D haha morning i came to school and had my earphones on and joyln was shouting like nobody's business but i couldnt hear! HAAH! anyways THANKS :D hahaha everybody was wishing me! :D aw! dont remember my birthday next time! anyways, pccg we talked about some career thing! haha! i wanted to be a police/store owner/musician/coach/pe teacher! AHAAHA weird right! o.o LA was super painful cause its really hard to spend so much energy trying not to sleep! :(
cc4 was like boringy too and the moment i put my head on the table i almost slept instantly! but AGAIN i tried REALLY HARD not to fall asleep! dannie was writing my "card" and passed it to me during lesson! HAHA! :D thanks dannie! During recess went to find jolyn and she was sleeping in class AGAIN! (always happens =.= if i dont go find her =.=) haha we walked around and dunno what to do! so we went to pop and we bought snacks and ended up walking in the rain and eating under the rain in the tennis court! haha! :D
math was...normal...geog was really interesting i stayed back a little to hear mr lim's further explanation on plate tectonics and i feel so enlightened! it makes me think that geog is sorta the "future" and history IS "history" haha! :D then training!
halfway during training like half the sec 4s disappeared and i thought they were slacking in the canteen again!hahaha BUT THEN! they came back with a cake from island creamery! AWWWWW! THATS SO SWEET! XD THANKS TEAMMIE LOVE YOU GUYS! :D haha, they kept it in the canteen fridge! OMG ITS SO UNEXPECTED LAH! haha then the cake was like melting on the court under the sun! LOL we had no plates so we borrowed soup spoons..? =.= haha so everybody just ate from there! :D AW THANK YOU GUYS AGAIN! haha anyways after my doubles match i went to jog around the school cause the courts were being used! (btw while jogging with justina i was repeating part of what she said to ask what she wanted to say and accidentaly said the f-word -cause she said it- and slapped myself like a million times o.o)
haha then after that i opened my presents in fron of teammies AND THANKS TO THOSE WHO HAVE GIVEN ME PRESENTS AGAIN! :D haha then mel was chasing me to go home already=.= so yeah i went home! haha then when they came they refused to let me open the fridge! URGH! hahaha. the rest came and we barbequed! lol but by the time we bbq-ed everybody had no more appetite! esp me! LOL i ate like a satay and a little more of the other stuffs! haha then they FINALLY showed me what they had been hiding! they made a cake and did the icing themselves! awww! THANKS ALOT GUYS! I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE BEEN PLANNING THIS SINCE FOREVER! haha then they sorta erm made me watch paranormal activity and i almost died? i was so scared man! throughout the whole thing i was like closing my eyes covering my ears and humming to myself! SEE IM SUCH A SCAREDY CAT! :(
then i had to go out and play guitar cause it was too tiring to curl up and humm =.=
after that everybody was like screaming and stuff lol! haha then they went home. shaian, as usual, was the last! LOL
anyways, thanks to my really sweet bro who spend $200 bucks on me! O.O ohmygod im so touched T.T
anyways, I HAD A GREAT DAY! :D hhaha thanks everybody again!
22 Jan 2010 :D , it rhymes! try saying it out loud! :D
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Thursday, January 21, 2010
ohmanz! im tired
thursdays are long days i dont like it :( morning there was lecture, almost slept! Then we had chem and it was okay cause we got to discuss and talk. then health check which was boring too! same degree of bent backbone and same eye degree! i think! We wrote ying yong wen for chinese and then was already half dead for math and ih. And during ih the whole class discovered that our chinese sia second draft was due tmr and freaked out to mr lim! haha then he was trying to comfort us.
after school wanted to go for math supp but then was too stressed/tired :\ Then went to the canteen to eat something! Then walked home and became a luo tang ji =.= like the sky like boomzed and then i couldnt do anything! so i was like there walking and everybody was staring at me LOL! halfway i took my pullover out cause i realised i liked my pullover better than the hongzi :D
learned how to play "today was a fairytale", taylor's new song! :D and then i ownzed love story's solo! (but only for today i think!) haha :D so fun :D
then i had drums make up class at 7.30! hhaha now im back home and i think im really sleepy now o.o wonder why! hmm, tomorrow might be another horrible day! o.o
OOHHHGODD i need counterpain for shoulder again!! O.O
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Wednesday, January 20, 2010
hectic day!
lessons in the morning was quite boring..then recess went down with mel and company,math was quite fun, nsb was really high. oh after chinese alyssa and i needed to print something and we rushed to the com to faster print! then came back like 10-15 mins late and then we were running up to the classroom! Then my annoying skirt kept dropping! o.o so by the time i arrived in class my skirt was like a gown or something i dont know! cause mr ng was like "woah why your skirt so long!" LOL and i was standing in front of the class oh my tian so embarrassing! o.o anyways, had to fix my skirt really unglamly after that!
Then after sch grenda and i rushed to aor, my first lesson! the teacher was quite nice, and so qiao the first song he asked me to play is love story :D! then wake me up when september ends! i told him i wanna learn love drunk and he said he'll help me find! anyways, it was a one to one lesson and it was quite scary! o.o the drums were so loud btw i got intimidated by it! haha okay shall play softly!
after aor grenda and i went to kap to do work + eat curly fries. Then we were talking talking then suddenly talk about some stuff which was super sensitive! :\ then we realised that what we went through was roughly the same and it was really painful too :( honestly i was going to cry at one pt and i think grenda too! haiz, three of the six ppl in our class went through this :( i realise that, after so long, i thought i could put it down, but i can't :( grenda can't too :( but its part of our lives already we're forced to live through this :(
all the small stuff, all the heart and effort, all the sweat and time...was a waste.
we have to :( like or not, there's nothing we can do about it but remain silent and accept the pain :(:(:(:(
anyways, private was horrible! i dont know but dalvdermort seemed to be angry that ht beat him at last fri's training and according to me he seemed like he was taking it all out on me!urgh! so angry with myself that i threw my racket several times :( (not to mention one was at the wall) hmm i was having one of those moments where all the bad memories and problems come crashing down on me and i can't take the weight, i felt like lying down where ever i was and never get up :(
anyways, tuition after that, it was boring! and i conclude that orange juice rock so much! esp sunkist! :D just bought the cooling counterpain!comps coming up! :D so i just reached home, at about 10? o.o sianz!
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
yo guyz!
today was quite boring! its one of the two longest day of the week. anyways, morning had math, almost died! lucky we were doing an extension of the topic so i didnt have to FULLY understand it! eh but at least i understand most of it! ...i think? :D Then geog was,quite interesting as usual, more about the earth, more about the plates but almost fell asleep again! LA was okay, i don't listen in LA, and yuka was beside me like hiccuping! LOL! justina and friends totally barged into the class and started borrowing chinese textbooks! HAHA so crazy and happy to see luna! Went to find jolyn during recess and ate in class(hehe :D) Then we had like 20 hours left so we went walking in and out of popular! SIL was totally cool, they invited a speaker to talk about the kranji war memorial and how it was like during the jap occupation! oh man it is so interesting man! But there was this picture whereby the jap officers were standing together beside a table which had human heads on them :( the guy said that looters were subjected to execution! omg! :O
Bio was, okay...just more about SIAs, was quite bored! Then CME was so funny! We were suppose to go and act out the correct and the incorrect versions of courtesy!HAHA my group had janessa denise yiyuan belle and yuka and we acted out some award ceremony and i was the "luo xiao zhang" LOL! so funny! Janessa was suppose to act as the rude one so when denise came to supposedly take the prize, janessa totallly shouted and BOO-ed and sprayed water at her! LOL in front of the teacher! THen snatched the "trophy" from me! HAHA i couldnt stop laughing k! Then yiyuan totally bowed to me a gazillion times and then "MUA-MUA" my face HAHA! so funny! :D
After school had chinese remedial and almost died! o.o the teacher was explaining on chang wen suo duan and i was like there trying SO HARD not to sleep! Anyways, i tried to move faster on court today! hmm, then we went for friendlies, played against singapore poly! Hm, it was OKAY! won my singles 6-EGG and then played doubles with jolyn and jolyn was playing like an ahma today! LOL anyway coach k bought us drinks YEAH! :D
book's band is practicing downstairs! i think they're composing a song! I have bio and Chem to do! urgh! oh yeah forgot to mention! i was SO NERVOUS when i was playing my singles! OMG DIE! how how how! :( i was shaking so badly i think i looked as if i was made of jelly! O.O oh no comps how how! (apparently nobody is believing me that im nervous!) ooooohhh!!! -dances around-
oh yeah ever since the amps operation,my back has been feeling really weird! i kinda dont dare twist it that much! haha IT FEELS WEIRD! O.O
first AOR lesson with grenda tmr :D maybe i could learn love drunk and we could nutella :D
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Monday, January 18, 2010
woah my fingers are so sore from guitar that it hurts typing! o.o
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hey everybody!
today was boring, training in the morning, went crazy, partnered ron against malfoy and neville! haha they won and we were crazy! HAHA anyways, class was boring, mr lim didnt come today, lls was out, and hence we have no fts.mel went haywire during erm, geog? lol i dont know i think its a picture of me that seems to be really funny but they wont let me see it! LOL so im just sitting there watching her laugh her head off and give her the o.O face and she kept on laughing when she sees my expression! LOL what so funny?
AND they tortured me during recess again! i realised that instead of being more immune to pokes i get more afraid of them! O.O so everytime they poked me i would fall! oh man! LOL! and worst thing was that im walking like an ahma today cause my back's still pain! HAHAHA!
after school went to eat with neville, got chased by mel! then sat in class and started talking to mel!
oh yeah they were suppose to be talking about LA sia when they suddenly switched topic to having a BBQ on my birthday! HAHA! not gonna do anything just gonna let them plan! AND THEY ARE REFUSING TO TELL ME SOMETHING THAT THEY'RE HIDING!!!!! hmmmmm!!!!!
i guess i'll find out sooner or later! -wink- :D
was playing basketball after dinner and i saw xinying jogging! :D then i went to play drums and now im gonna play guitar then finish up on homework :D
TARTAR! ^^
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hey everybody!
today was boring, training in the morning, went crazy, partnered ron against malfoy and neville! haha they won and we were crazy! HAHA anyways, class was boring, mr lim didnt come today, lls was out, and hence we have no fts.mel went haywire during erm, geog? lol i dont know i think its a picture of me that seems to be really funny but they wont let me see it! LOL so im just sitting there watching her laugh her head off and give her the o.O face and she kept on laughing when she sees my expression! LOL what so funny?
AND they tortured me during recess again! i realised that instead of being more immune to pokes i get more afraid of them! O.O so everytime they poked me i would fall! oh man! LOL! and worst thing was that im walking like an ahma today cause my back's still pain! HAHAHA!
after school went to eat with neville, got chased by mel! then sat in class and started talking to mel!
oh yeah they were suppose to be talking about LA sia when they suddenly switched topic to having a BBQ on my birthday! HAHA! not gonna do anything just gonna let them plan! AND THEY ARE REFUSING TO TELL ME SOMETHING THAT THEY'RE HIDING!!!!! hmmmmm!!!!!
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Sunday, January 17, 2010
eh woah i went to weigh the big amp and the base drum! oh my god its 21.2 kg lol!
oh gah now my back's pain again! rgh!
reminds me of that time when i woke up with a full body cramp and couldnt walk and needed to pee so badly! Then i had to crawl to the toilet and pee! Then i couldnt get off and had to sit there till my mum came. Then she helped me with my clothes and then helped me on the bed to put counterpain on me! HAHA! omg epic failz! It was the first time i ran 20 rounds k! And shaian is laughing her ass off right now cause she finds it funny! LOL! O.O
what so funny..? its not funny right? o.o yeah its not funny! (:
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hey guys.
woke up in the most dramatic way today! or rather, someone woke me up=.= OH NO JOLYN IM STARTING TO BE LIKE YOU! today i had tuition at 10 and then i woke up to my alarm clock at 9 and went back to sleep the moment i turned it off. So i only woke up when like ashley and the tuition teacher was in my room WTS! okay was too tired to be embarrased.LOL! anyways. i havent washed my hair and im not intending to anyways tmr gonna wash liao.
Had math tuition, was okay, i guess, had two assignment worksheets to do and i still dunno how to do like two parts of a question that i dunno. asked around and everybody only did assignment one so far LOL! Then went to cook lunch with ashley surprisingly we didnt blow the kitchen up! We made black pepper crab noodles plus cuttlefish balls plus crabsticks plus some potato thing! AHHA quite success! although there wasnt enough soup =.=
watched so you think you can dance! HAHA! cool lah! got one contestant she actually fell but then covered it by rolling! god shes dam pro. went back to do my geog assignment and only finished now! haha!
tmr morning theres trainig! im still stuck to sugar we're going down its such a nice song to sing bye!
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Saturday, January 16, 2010
Its a saturday.
woke up and was so freaking tired. dragged myself to drums and then went home. oh gah and im like aching everywhere? not exactly aching, sorta like..suannish, or maybe its aching i dont know! lol. ESP BACK! oh my god, im like an old woman cant get up properly.And i was walking around the place like a penguin, like not moving my torso?
and the hand which i totally put my base drum on is like BRUISED really big and painful bruise right there but it looks normal. so please dont grab my left hand anytime soon!haha jk just grab it if you want a reaction=.=
anyways i was reading a magazine at times and then the netball coach just suddeny BOOM appeared besides me and started reading a magazine too! OMG lucky i couldnt move that much because if i could i would have flew away quite fast! HAHA SHES SCARY! LOL omg.
rest of the afternoon was boring. decided to watch "the stepfather" and it was so scary i went into the room to lie down with moompe. and then moompe was like "why you so scared! its just a show ..... BOOM!" lol then she suddenly poked me and i got scared! =.= then i beat her back but she was laughing she didnt scold me! LOL
MAN IM A SCAREDY CAT! I WONDER WHY! cant ride roller coasters, cant watch scary movies, get shocked easily, get scared easily! =.=
anyways, after that watched the american idols auditions and it was awesome :D haha i liked one guy alot and im searching for him now on youtube! eh Joshua Blaylock! lol he might not be a that nice singer but i like his voice! haha and hes so funny!
anyways, hope tmr i feel better, and bandmates too! AHHA shaian became half-mummified
sianz, ACCIO COUNTERPAINNNN!!!!!!!!!
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I just rembered that Shaian whamed my head into the class's opened window pane yesterday lucky there's no bruise =.=
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Br-br-br-bruises =.= sianz there's a big bruise on my arm!! Everywhere is like suanish! And my back is like thumbs down! Backbackbackbackback ow !
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Friday, ah finally the end of the week
Class Breakfast: Woah, quite successful! Food was nice! Sausages were finished, and a particular luna came strolling to our table with a fork=.= lls saw and asked her what shes doing here, haha then said ahyah nvm just take bah. CLeaning up was easy cause lotsa people helped, THANKS! but i felt like a garbage woman! AHAH dam funny
LA : nothing
CLC: crap poems
Recess: rushed around like nobody's business =.= celebrated grace's birthday, went to meet lls for chi sia then rushed up to practice woah.hermione george pancy and malfoy was there
math: more differenciation, had two assignments for the weekend pass up on monday wts! :(:(:(:( stresssssssss
ih: nothing, consultation, spent whole lesson slacking.
Practiced after school, went for cca, sianz. dalvdermort came and played with malfoy and he lost! Lol luna was lunatic about that =.=
went to watch netball match after that with hermione and george, quite interesting, then ran up and down, found shaian and val and they bathed liao, then waited for grenda and we bathed together. So funny in the shower the water was dam cold and both of us was like "omg not cold not cold, very hot very hot!" haha and i went to another cubicle to put on my jeans. The hair dryer didnt work and i didnt have a comb,so my hair was shit. Got ready in class, practiced once again and val could like use all her might. =.=
Then brought down the stuff and almost died. Like shaian and i were carrying the big amp and like my back like broke or something=.= no lah, just super pain my god, wake up laio scully cannot move LOL. SALONPAS, COUNTERPAIN PLEASE PROCEEED TO MY BED! Sianz then we carried the drums down waseh crab walk all over the place! and i hung my base drum on my hand and its freaking heavy i got baluku liao.My hands were like shaking so badly can. urgh.
Got into the truck, drove to the wrong place and realised that chevron is opposite =.= anyways, reached there and had a BRILLIANT time bringing the intruments up again. Performed, hmm, i dont know, lets say, guitars were too soft, val was too loud. Basically, you can only hear the drums and val. LOL! videos were uploaded but to save ourselves from paisehness we kinda decided not to show it, temp decision though. Got free food, the fruit punch was awesome.Was so hungry after the gig but couldnt eat. lol too nervous! my hands couldnt stop shaking can! AHA damz.
anyways, I AM SO FREAKING TIRED SO FREAKING TIRED!!!!!!!!!! gonna crash, bye
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Thursday, January 14, 2010
no,no get out of my mind! i dont want you to be there. gah this is so irritating!
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i just remembered that mel poked(and tickled) me twice today, actually many times, first one i screamed, second one i fell down. watch out mel ;)
and not to forget she onced chased me for like 2 hours carrying a scissors and refuse to give up!
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believe it or not im going running in the rain, now, right now
i need to be punished man
i start jogging and it stops raining... wts
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Wts....at acs barker sitting on the staircase shivering and tearing away.is this what I signed up for?just played a f-ing crappy match and if anyone were to talk to me about me, my match or my life now,I would probaly go and commit suicide,really.I Let down team,2 coahes and myself WTF,nothing in 2010 went well so far,oh so is this how my life is gonna be like for the rest of the year? If it is then fml Im not gonna stand it for one year,giving up already.
Hello?!?!?!? Why did I live why am I here?I'm wasting the earth's resources.
Why I don't I spare the trouble for you and for me and just kill myself right now?
Make sense right
yes
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Wednesday, January 13, 2010
what a boring day shall i say!
had a stomach ache in the morning and it seems to be coming back now :\ carried my drum stool to school and got stared at. =.=
PE: went too early cause changed too fast, hence went for a jog with mr chia while waiting for the class. then height and weight and they said they had a new maching which is totally not fair because at first i measured 164 then i was like WTS?! rubbish lah! i shrinked from last year? then mr chia said "okayokay u can measure again" then i went again and then it became 163 WTS! OMG! STUPID MACHINE! walao?! okay so tomorrow i'll be 162! probably i'll be negative height soon! =.=
did inclines, played the two-towers game which was so dam funny!
LA: lab, boring, realise that 2 of my R&Rs needs new articles. the class cant find an english name that suited me and shaian kept insisting its either cai or dai=.= she wants me to either become a vegetable or die! TSKTSK SHAIAN!
Break: ate, then jammed. sorry again for causing so much noise i feel so bad :( esp we dont even sound nice
Math: nth much, just learning more
Chinese:had ting xie!LOL hot 7/10 and i didnt study :D
Chem: had quiz first thing! I saw the quiz paper and went "shittymama" and then alyssa couldnt stop laughing for like half the quiz till pat goh had to tell her to keep quiet a few times! LOL then after the quiz alyssa told sihui what i said and they couldnt stop laughing till like 15 minutes left of the lesson?! LOL! sihui took this picture with a cute angmoh guy from judo "fresh from overseas" and IDC IM NOT JEALOUS! i train with angmoh people when i was in elite TOO! =.=
jammed before bio prep and someone asked us to lower the volume=.= get sad when that happens. screwed bio prep! lol bellatrix's mum fetched me home again and i feel so bad! anyways im having a real bad left shoulder muscle ache from idk what! WEIRD! gah i need chiong ih tonight! :(
anyways after prep luna and bellatrix were overly hilarious.
bellatrix:
"WOOOO LETS GO!"
-starts skipping-
-skipskipskip-
-PDOING!- (itouch flew onto the floor)
"OMG AHHH NOO!"
bellatrix u best lah win hands down!=.=
and omg wy has hini after her camp DAMN! man im worried!get well soon so you nerp and i can spend sometime together!man its been so long and we keep putting off our dates!
NOW MY STOMACH IS PAINFUL AND I NEEDA GO SHIT WTS!
I HATE STOMACH ACHES!
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010
haha today = best training ever :D
shall start with the start of the day
woke up in the morning and was dam tired! i have no idea why i slept at most at 1! o.o then er ate breakfast and the bread tasted sweeter than the egg. Then i went to brush teeth and to NO SURPRISE, toothpaste got into my eye=.= dammit i was bending down at the sink for like how long to wipe it off! then later cannot straighten up then walked like ahma back to my room. Struggled to bring drums and amps. When i got to school i had to carry the drums up=.= MAN! im still thinking we should get a room cause we'll be disrupting other classes :\
Geog:
Almost slept, i was at the table facing mr lim and literally closing my eyelids after i blink. LOL it was really tough to keep awake i probably should have just slept =.=
Bio:
had lab, we did the testing of the i-forgot-what.. er the test of the "urine" thing basically the benedic'ts and biuret's. sianz. rushed to finish the table and basically copied the readings off yuka cause i forgot how mine looked like=.=
Math: surprisingly it was okay, just like usual, boring, sometimes funny, sometimes confusing. nothing much to say! oh halfway during the lesson mr ng stopped and suddenly said "mun ning are you okay anot?" then i nodded then he said "give me a smile!" then i smiled and some ppl laughed LOL thanks for making fun of me! i was tired and stressed but did i look that bad? i thought my face was =.= all the time.
recess: spend whole recess in class jamming, and it was soft and it sounded horrible! i realised that glenda and i arnt coordinating well for some parts. the distortion may not fit the drums at times, ah thats how i feel. Sorry to the class and the other classes who had to hear our lousy music.
LA: nothing, went to comp lab and slacked
Chinese: did ke ben and was super bored
Chem: went through chem ws and then nothing liao. just that the chem lab 4 fans are like on super high speed and it dries my eyes=.= we might be going there for subsequent lessons and so every chem lesson im gonna dry my eyes out.
training: lol almost everybody came late =.= justina totally ponned it and we helped her cover up that she has a headache! LOL anyways amandakoh is a bimbo who takes so freaking long to do her stuff in the toilet=.= i was like standing there for so long and after she arranged her fringe i thought she was done but she still had to go and put her sunblock=.= omg! After that during warm ups she stole my ball and made mrs ho think that i accidentally hit a ball too close to her! LOL STUPID AMANDAKOH! anyways, it started drizzling after we started playing from the baseline. then balls up, it stopped raining, then we talked there and jolyn was hitting balls all over the place. Then the sky exploded and then all of us got drenched.LOL
Hence george and i had free gel to style our hair=.= mine was suppose to be a moehog but then it became a durian instead=.= LOL did 2 sets of the stairs thing, did 100 or 200 lunges, after that we went to the canteen and slacked! Then went to run around the quadrangle lol and the girl guides were all over the place we had to side walk to get past them! LOL then while we ran we talked and amandatang totally went crazy laughing her head off! HAHA! we ran about 10 rounds? and overlapped the rest AHAHHA! Then everybody stopped and then shannon amanda and i started running again after shanna and gwen started.
AND THEn its so funny we were seeing all the uniform groups and then tennis decided to show them that we can coordinate too! LOL so we tried to do jumping jacks together! HAHAHAH like we lined up and stuff and then we failed terribly! LOL then we did like less than 10 push ups and the whole team started lying on the floor (or maybe only me=.=) then we did like 5 sit ups and then some ppl say their butt pain cause its on the floor! WTS WE FAIL! HAHAH! went back to the audi and got dismissed.
after training george and i stayed back a lil so we had some time to walk around and talk! anyways, friendlies this thurs! TIC is asking us to take part in some tennis competition that has like 28k as prize money but obviously i wont win so ...yeah :\ well i hope next training everyone will be there cause then it'll be more fun :D haha btw tomorrow theres PE! but there's gonna be height and weight wts waste my time lah. probably gonna weight 60 kg with all the muscles aches omg just make PE lessons more important and everybody will lose weight=.= COMEON MAN BRING ON THE SOCCER! WE WANT PE! next week pe is gone cause of health check WTS! this sucks? =.=
anyways, feeling pressure of the comps already! kinda nervous! gah i dunno, we havnt ordered jersey! shitz
someone please remind me to buy cheese sausages for friday!
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EH SHAIAN JUST SEND ME CLIPS AND I REALISED THAT I SOUND HORRIBLE I CANNOT MEET PEOPLE!
AND THAT I SOUND LIKE A GUY AND MY VOICE IS VERY BLUNT!
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Monday, January 11, 2010
woah, first tennis training that is official for the 7 main in the morning! lol morning was nothing much, just basic playing and stuff, didnt feel like moving my feet much. LOL AND THE WORST THING IS, i forgot to bring the jersey samples today and we had a tennis meeting =.= LOl so later i called moompe and told her to bring it to sch for me=.= since she leaves the house at 8. AND THEN i waited outisde the sch gate LOL and she told me i couldnt rush her because she had to put make up and stuff =.=
anyways, then jolyn and i were standing there and like some sec ones thought that we were prefects! LOL OMG then like sec 2s or 3s thought that we were being punished =.= then the music started playing and my mum wasnt there yet! LOL so like when the music was ending, my mum came then we went in and then ran up. but had to take the pledge at the stairs=.=
lessons was boring after that, bio we did mostly recap, then we did compo for chinese, then recess jolyn and i walked around finding tennis people cause they didnt meet=.= for math is was fairly okay, LA was just boring. We had class committee meeting after that and is suppose to have it frequently from now on o.o!
then after sch went to walk back with denise shaian and glenda, jammed, and then realised that our lead singer COULDNT/DIDNT WANNT PERFORM WT_! All freaked out,we got someone to replace though. Jamming was okay, glenda and denise went home early and shaian was left at my house being bored. Hence she decided to make me "sing" to see if i could reach the high notes.OHMYGOD AND SHE RECORDED IT THIS IS SO EMBARRASING, PLEASE DO NOT GO LOOK FOR SHAIAN!!!!! im gonna steal her phone and delete it, if not people are gonna die when they listen to it URGH! OMG IM EMBARRASSED SHAIAN DELETE IT MY SINGING IS NOT SINGING ITS SCREAMING LIKE A CRAZY WOMAN WHO CANT REACH A WOMAN'S VOCAL RANGE=.=
okay thats all.
i have a feeling theres something i need to do but i forgot, so good luck mun.
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Sunday, January 10, 2010
OMG AHAHHA TODAY JAMMING SESSION! :D
haha shaian came too early because grenda was being crazy and smsing in chinese and in that sms her chinese cmi so shaian got the wrong idea." 在十二后去曼宁的家" that was her sms but she wanted to say that im free after 12 and u CAN come to my house! LOL so shaian came at 12.30 and thought she was late=.=
anyways, jammed alot. overall everything improved when shaian discovered the distortion button and grenda's guitar sounded so much better! LOL. TOLD YOU GUYS TO SHOUT IF U CANT REACH IT! not actually shout but go and dare to sing!
some random thought it that jamming makes our band healthy because we always eat fruits while jamming=.=
man we practiced really little and i hope that this friday all will go well :( anyways i should go make a list of the things that we needa bring on that day if not like last time forgot to bring the guitar caleb :\:\:\:\:\:\:\ hahaha
tomrrow morning theres tennis training! and then we need to meet the whole team to check out the jersey sizes! wowz! GAH! should i bring drumsticks to sch to prac? haha the band is thinking of bring out equipments to sch to practice! lol ohwells!
...wait, its sunday?
no way.
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Saturday, January 9, 2010
just uploaded an awesome profile on my facebook :D
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this is how i feel :D
credits to taylor who helped showcase my mood :D:D:D:D
nothing much happened!
just went for drums, came back playyed more drums, lazed in front of tv, decided to do the class birthday list and just nothing.more drums.lol congrats taylor on the People's Choice Awards :D
she looks cool here :D
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back pain :'(
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just now when i came back from drums and went into my room, my com was gone o.o
then i realised that my bro took it to do proj with his friends
and then i got so pissed and i wanted to go into their room and tell them to f off my computer
then i realised, actually since its a proj and they really need it, then just let them have it
BUT THEN I REALISED that HE DIDNT EVEN CALL OR LEAVE ME AN SMS TO ASK IF HE COULD TAKE IT!
so i told my mum i wanted to go to their room and tell them to f*** of my computer,like literally,then she called home and told him to return it.he asked me while i was playing drums and i didnt reply cause i was still pissed.at least its here now
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Friday, January 8, 2010
did everyone see what my dad said this morning?
"dodo"
"?"
"i drop you at hwachong airport ok?"
"mm..... , ?!"
LOL dam funny wanted to laugh but my throat was so dry!
btw why do i keep having to worry? i think im stuck with it forever
TRAINING:
alright!training today,my favourite :D haha got to be with teammies and stuff althought i went late.i would like to mention my convo with justina! :D
luna:"haiz i miss mandy already, shes not here today,training feels weird and not fun without her"
fred:"haha yeah,actually come to think of it, training would not be fun without any of us."
luna:"oh yeah..true hor!"
haha this made me happy :D
and then we went to the canteen for a break and for the dunno what time jolyn left her pikachu wallet on the bench and i had to remind her=.= OHMYGOD. haha jolyn was having a horrible day and getting some shit on her hand didnt help! DAM FUNNY! Then we were chasing each other back to the court and then panting so heavily then george offered us a onion ring then jolyn and i was like "THANKS!" then we took and put in our mouth! then realise that we couldnt eat it because we were chewing and panting HAHA!then we had to stop to breathe!dam funny lah!and shannon was being an ass today also!LOL ahyah many funny things lah cannot say finish :D
PCCG:
talked about class breakfast,got yuka to help me with the sausages!so we're bringing 100 baby sausages HAHA! anyways, mr lim was like there practically ordering food LOL! Dorcas was like: "eh mr lim! thought u suppose to lose weight!then why you still eat so much ah?"
mrlim: "OH YAH! ahyahahyah nevermind lah I WILL LOSE WEIGHT..after the class breakfast! MUAHAHAHAHHA!" =.=
lol and then we talked about the freaking graces and then mrlim was like: "ehh..so you girls dont need to buy such an expensive one just rent also can lah...mmm..and ehm im looking forward to seeing munning in a dress ah mmmmm....!"
whole class: "HAHAHA"
OH GOD im not going graces! IM TELLING YOU IM NOT :D i dont care if im a spoilt sport!ah im not a sport :D i play sports :D
lilaoshi pulled the cmi chinese class people out to tell us why we're in the cmi class! AHAHA basically we're not that bad,just need more attention?smth like that
LA:
went to com lab, did the presentation, pretty boring lah, was just waiting to go off for BEL cheering session.
BEL CHEERING SESSION:
haha sianz!we didnt know the cheers at all=.= then we were suppose to lead the sec ones!well i got 105 and they were okay, not loud but okay. haha jolyn concluded that all the smallest people in class are the ones that lead the class=.= since for ours its almond :D haha and for another is our super small junior that cant fit into the smallest pe tshirt o.o shes good though!i was trying to cheer but i feel so stupid cause i can hear myself when i shout my loudest!lol
MATH:
learnt somemore differenciation, just normal stuff.like mr ng was trying to tell us that we're finding the gradient of a point but then the point is not really a point because they start to move towards each other till they are very close and they are still moving but then dont touch..and then he used some lovers exaplanation "ah you know two lovers?when one person love another and the other also love him, then they're hearts is said to form as one right? but can their hearts really stick together?" LOL then the whole class was like "...?!?!?!?!" LOL. then we kept making jokes on the house outside the window because he tells us he cant afford it and mel went to tell him that he work whole life also cannot buy! AHAH then he so sad!
GEOG:
i've been waiting for this since i chose geog. PHYSICAL GEOG! FINALLY OMG! physical geog is so interesting well at least we geog people know about how the earth and the how the first living organism came about :D ohyeah its really interesting!
IH PREP TEST:
right i thought we had options to choose which topic ques we wanna do.apparently not and i apparently i didnt study on conflict i thought i was going to do welfare.okay i crapped alot and i could possible get 0,maybe 1?haha no joke =.=
anyways,today was a hectic day! after training we went to queensway with mrs ho to see the jersey.then she said i very guai so she fetched me home AHAHHA! ohwells. at least its not very awkward!
wait, its friday? wow
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Thursday, January 7, 2010
i need to get on with my life wtf did i do i've got warnings but didnt take it.
see how stupid i am
wtfwtfwtf
why must i be like this
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i feel sick and tired and sticky and im lying on the table feeling really uncomfortable and tired :(:(:(
really uncomfortable really uncomfortable really uncomfortable
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